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When This Day Comes

When this day comes, what will I do?
My body feels numb and at the age of 4 people considered me to be dumb
Had a speaking impairment, they never acknowledged it
I was alone until I met her
Throughout these years I've come to know her past
11 years passed by too fast
I'm scared when this day comes, the day she might lose her brain
Voices in her head tell her that she's better off dead
My mind is frozen in time, it'll happen for a lifetime

The thoughts I encounter in the meantime leave me distraught
His name is Shadow, this demon inside of me
So many times he's made me cry
Voices in my head tell me I'm pathetic
Everything I write is fucking poetic
I wonder why I even write this
Is it the only way not to fall into the abyss?
I want people to understand
Why can't they understand what I go through?
These attacks are unplanned and I can't stand what happens first-hand

When this day comes, what will I say?
What I want to accomplish will become astray
It's not hard to say that one day she will lose her brain
I cannot replace what's been left in the past
This contrast of emotion is left unspoken
I'll be left alone with things I regret to own
What will I do?
She keeps me grounded, but that leaves me astounded

I know when this day comes, I will not be the same without her
Sometimes I want to take the blame and give in to what we proclaim

When this day comes, everything will be left disarray

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This is for my best friend and my first friend Unknown-Filters.
I hope you know how much I care about you.