When We See Shooting Stars

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Hanna, 27 April,2014
Yoongi oppa hasn't answered a single call from me this week. I wonder what's wrong with him. I dialled to him again. And this time, he finally answered. "Hello", he toned coldly.

"Hello, oppa. How are you?"

"Fine",he sounded cold as ice.

"You're free today?"l asked.

"Why?"

"Uh, l've got nothing today. I just wanted to hang out with you."

"I'm busy,"

"You-are?"

"I am at the studio for recording."

"Oh, alright."

I hung up the phone and left a sigh. Why did he sound like that? He has never been so cold!

"Unnie", called Jihyo.

"Yeah?"

"Sheuzy unnie told you to go to BigHit with these papers."

"For editing?"

"Yes."

"Okay, hand me those."

I went to the office with the papers. After being done, l decided to meet the boys. "Soyeon, you know where Jin oppa and the others are?" "They are in the practice room."

"Hi noona!" Tae smiled. "Hey Tae." I went inside, and l saw Yoongi oppa sitting on the floor. "Oppa, you...you are here?" He stared darkly at me.

"You said you were in the studio."

"No l am not", he did not hesitate a bit.

"Why did you do it?"

He didn't answer.

"Oppa, l try to call you whenever l get time, and you hardly answer. I say nothing. Why do you do this to me? I -"

"You still think you deserve my love after all of this?"

"What?"

"You still want to be lived despite of having so many antis? Nobody wants you in kpop, none likes to see you around. You still got the guts to keep that head straight? You got no shame?"

I felt a sharp pain in my chest. What is he saying?

"Suga hyung, what are you saying?" I heard Jungkook's voice.

"Don't you feel ashamed of yourself? I get humiliated for you everywhere l go. It's because of you people mock me. You still want to date me? You still want me to love you?" My eyes got burning sensation as everything started to become blur in front of me. I just saw a blur figure of Namjoon oppa holding back his arms, while he stared sharply at me.

I walked out of the place, hearing others calling me from behind.

He is right. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve anyone's love. Some people don't, l am one of them.

I will thank him one day, for making  my worth so clear to me.