the day everything changed ( one direction )

part 65

As soon as the 5 drinks are in my system I drag zayn to an abandoned part of the docks.

I sit down and let my legs swing over the water.

Zayn takes a seat next to me and does the same .

His feet almost reach the water.

“ liam told you didn’t he “ zayn asks looking at the sun setting .

For a few moments I don’t respond “ yeah “ I finally say .

“ whats your opinion “ he asks .

I let my face fall in my hands.

“ I have never been so torn up about anything to be honest”

Zayn rips his eyes from the horizon and looks at me .

“ why “ he asks looking at my face for any trace of something.

“ I ,…. I don’t … I cant love , and I maybe ,… I … I want to “

I look at zayn completely hopeless .

He looks at the sea again .

“ maybe , you are so used to push love away that its hard to bring the feeling back “ he turns to me again .

“ my guess , of course , but I think you are afraid of getting hurt “ .

I look away from his face.

“ I cant escape this time can I “ I asks half laughing.

Zayn turns his body s o he is facing me .

“ what do you mean “ he demands.

Once again I turn to look at him.

A little smile on my face.

“ I first left you because we all became friends , I didn’t want anyone close to me , second time I left because yeah liam. But this time I cant run again , I have to much to leave behind here “

Realization downs on zayn his face .

“ you can love cant you ?” he questions .

I nod my head “ of course I can “ .

“ than why do you say you …” he trails off.

I pet his head “ exactly like you said zayn , I don’t want to be hurt”.

He looks at my face intently for a while before speaking again .

“ you like liam “ he states.

His statement makes me gasp.

I get up and without a word I walk back to the drinking booth .

As I am drinking my 4 drink sins I left zayn sitting there he walks up to me.

“ daddy D says he need you “

He turns away without another word or glance.

Meh .

I put my drinks down and walk to daddy D his trailer .

As I knock on his door someone steps out.

He or she is covered in a racing track .

His or her helmet on the head.

I cant see who it is as he or she briskly walks away.

“ you need me daddy D “ I say .

He nods his head “ you race now “ he says before pushing me out .