the girl no one notices

Part 2-First day of school

I don't really see the point in school. I feel like a ghost that just goes unnoticed, walking down the halls. One of the unseen, unpopular, nerdy kids, but that's life I guess. It's not really too fun to go to highschool and be in extracurricular activities sometimes it's really, really stressful. Although it can also be fun. However, a lot of things can get to me like well people and the things they say or words other people say to someone, a person they think is less than them, so they go after that person just because they can. It's not even with just bullies it's adults too. Let me just get this out of the way your words hurt so choose them carefully. You can just go around calling someone a slut or a nasty little bitch or whatever people happen to come up with these days and oh my personal favorite (*cough *sarcasm ) go kill yourself which people joke around about? I really don't understand it like at all, but then again most people don't understand that others have actually been in that place of nothingness, a black hole of helplessness where you don't want to continue on and any of it is completely unqualified for. Just think about what that person is thinking afterwards or what is that person going through that you don't know about maybe a lot. That person you called that what if they have cancer, what if they get abused either emotionally or psychically?, or even get knocked down over and over trying to just make it through the day. Some of us get knocked down, others will get back up and keep fighting, but there's people who aren't as strong or as privileged as you are. You never know what a person's life is really like outside of what you know about them so don't just don't go around saying hurtful things to people it's just wrong like can anyone possibly give me any explanation for that? No I'm guessing no. Take the time to think about what your going to say instead of impulsively blurting out nonsense. Okay I'm done now. It's just really hard.  No one notices me, I mean it always feels that way. Maybe some people do, but mostly it's just me, feeling invisible like why? I don't even know why I feel that way I just do. It's now almost the end of the day so yeah. As soon as I try and leave class I get tripped by my bully Alice Mackey. I honestly don't even know what I did to her to make her hate me, she just does. I never even talk to her or really anyone for that matter. What's the point? No one will listen and even if I do talk, I just get asked " What" or "what did you say?" it's very very  frustrating for me. I just get up and keep walking like nothing happened to make myself feel at least a little bit  better.
*After School *
Alright finally some peace and quiet without anyone bothering me just me and my music. I do the little bit of homework I have in about fifteen minutes because I never really even have much homework this school year, which is pretty nice if you ask me. I lay down and look at the ceiling, with the song gum by moose blood playing. I honestly overplay this song a lot because I seriously love it and I'm sure every other teenager overplays music until they absolutely can't stand that one song anymore. I close my eyes and eventually fall asleep.