SELENE

IX

TEARS

After giving herself one last peptalk, Selene made her way towards the ballroom.

In her head she hummed the song she and Apollo had danced to during their first dance. She couldn't wait to be in his arms again, dancing the night away and making sweet love after.

She knew he knew that she loved him, but she wanted to tell him how much he meant to her today.

She knew she was a little bit late, but feasts of the gods go on for hours so it didn't matter.
She entered the ballroom and the feast was in full swing. Everyone was dancing and laughing.

She made it halfway into the ballroom when she saw her Apollo sitting on his throne with two nymphs on his lap that were touching him the way she touched him at night.

A pang of pain shot through her body.

Then Zeus stood up and she was surprised when Helios walked up towards him.
"I wanted to announce that I herby acknowledge that Apollo is the true sun god and he is above me. My duties of the sun go to him."
Helios said, making her gasp.

Apollo then stood up and walked towards Helios.
"I am the true sun god! Only I, the son of Zeus!"

"You are a disgusting being, Apollo. You are not worthy of your position and especially not of my sister."
Helios said, making Selene frown.
What was happening? Helios would never give up his position and what did she have to do with it?

"I am the only one worthy of my position, Helios! It is you who is unworthy. You are just an old filthy titan. If it wasn't for my father's mercy you would have been killed just like the rest of your kind. You are the one that is disgusting! You are weak, giving away such a high position for something as stupid as your sister?! And the funniest thing is that I still hold her strings in my hand.
I am Apollo, I am mighty, I can do what I want, fuck who I want and live how I want."
He said laughing.

There was only one thing Selene felt in that moment.
It was raw and utter pain. It felt like her heart was trying to tear itself out of her chest. Everything in her body was hurting.
Was anything they had real? Her love for him was, that she was sertain of, but what about the rest? What about all the times they had been togheter? What about when he called her his love?
Tears streamed down her face as she held both hands against her heart, afraid it would jump out.

Did she really mean nothing to him?

"Let's continue this feast!"
Apollo said as he raised his cup of ambrosia
He then looked down and their eyes met.

Just like when he had seen her for the first time, only this time instead of pure love, her eyes were filled with nothing but pain.

He didn't hold her eyes for long, but instead went to sit back down as the nymphs crawled back up on him.

She felt sick.

She felt heartbroken.

She felt dirty.

She quickly ran out of the ballroom, and started looking for her brother. He who had sacrificed so much just for her sake.
She found him in an empty room and ran towards him crying.

"Brother, I am so sorry."
She said through her tears.
"Can you ever forgive me?"

"You are such a fool. You were never smart, but to walk into the trap of someone like that?! You are weak, Selene. And right now, you disgust me just as much as he disgusts me."
He said, spitting his words out like venom, each piercing through her already bleeding heart.

"I understand."
She said weakly, as she stood up and left him.

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