Everlasting

Chapter Four

I sat on the floor not moving, barely breathing. Finally, Gray said something " Lily, you don't have to go back to that hell hole if you don't want. You can just stay with me and my family" I still didn't move not only from the lack of energy but the disappointment and sadness. There was only one way to make me get out of this type of state. Gray held his breath before he took his right hand and raised it high. SLAP!!

Gray had just slapped me. He of all people slapped me. I was angry again, but this time it wasn't because he slapped me, but because of what he said. I looked at Gray with deep blue eyes expressing everything that I was feeling right now. Why would he that of things.

What was he thinking when he said that? Did he not think about how I feel? Or was he thinking about all of what I've said about my home? But still, why? My thoughts were everywhere. I slowly get out of Gray's arms and stand up. I'm on my feet and I unconsciously walk away into the forest thinking so hard about what I should do.

Gray gets up and catches up to me. He's trying to get my attention. I keep walking into the forest. Then I stop in a clearing. I was filled with flowers that were bright yellow and violet. I look around seeing trees blocking all but one path, the path that lead me here. There was a bench in the middle of the clearing and a table next to it. The table was more like a stump, but that doesn't matter.

I walked to the bench and sat down. I took a deep breath to calm myself. My eyes went from a deep blue back to a soft lilac. Right now I showed no emotion. Gray sat beside me. He looked at me pity in his eyes.

"Lily, please come with me. It would be better than staying at that place with those people." Gray said. You could hear the emotion in his voice, but what was it?

"Gray I understand that you care for me, but you won't always be by my side. I have to do this myself. I have to stick up to my 'family'. Ok?"

"Fine, I guess. Just please be careful and think about everything you do before you do it. I don't want you to get in trouble for anything" Gray had said with the same unreadable emotion.

I nodded my head and stood up from the bench. I sighed and turned around to look at Gray, my eyes looking dead. I turn away from him for it was to hard for me to look at him. I was going to make the biggest decision of my life and he won't be there to stop me. "I'll see you later" I say and walk away.

Walking down the street, the sun still in the sky. As I knew it, time barely past and I had no concept of it. I looked at the world differently than most people. I saw the world as a curse. I saw that humanity was nothing, but a virus. I saw no point in us really existing in this world. I saw no color in this world. I saw no happiness nor love. I only saw anger and fear. I saw that the only thing that I really cared for was one person.

And it was me.