Meant To Be | tk

Chapter 12: Admitted

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Third Person POV

Jeongguk will never admit anything infront of anyone. He won't definitely admit the weird feelings in front of Yoongi or Namjoon or Seokjin---the feelings that---after years---he is feeling and all because of him---because of Taehyung.

Let's not go the feelings right now, let's stay to he moment right now. Jeongguk though can surely admit this little think at the moment that Taehyung looks so beautiful sleeping in his bed, under a white comforter, soft snores leaving his mouth.

Jeongguk grabs stool and sits beside the bed, his elbows resting on his thighs and hands clasped as he stares at Taehyung sleeping.

Yoongi lies. He lies about many things. Yoongi says that Jeongguk sees his old self in Taehyung but it's not true. Most of it isn't. Jeongguk was never even close to be pure like Taehyung.

Jeongguk sure loved photography and he sure was a lively person. He was no stranger to what his father was and he he does. He knew he will be the future heir of this Mafia kingdom. But things never stay the same. Time after time, Jeongguk realised the people he calls his parents and the people he thought were nice----turned out to be nothing more than monsters.

Then nineteen years old Jeongguk than realised it very clearly that in his world---the world of blood and and filth---you are all alone. There is no one with you. Everyone wants to rule and for that, they would do anything. Jeongguk realised that if you are weak, you are better dead.

To rule in this deadly world, you have to be heartless. You have to be cold and you have to not care. It's the rule or else you'll perish. Though Jeongguk took it way too seriously, maybe because he has seen how easily the feelings can kill you. Jeongguk didn't realised when his heart turned into a stone. He didn't knew when he became a ruthless monster---to whom everyone else was a mere toy and he wanted to just rule.

And Jeongguk got used to it all. Killing and torturing all his victims was an addiction to him. Taking over everyone else was what he wanted. And never even in his wildest dreams he had thought that the walls he had built to make him this so stone cold and a monster---which helped him survive---would be broken so easily by the raspberry haired boy sleeping just in arm's distance from him.

Even if he thinks about it, he can't just grasp the moment when Taehyung had made him stumble. Taehyung was just another of his owned possession yet Taehyung has done something no one has ever done. Jeongguk was scared and still is that how quickly Taehyung is making him stumble from the place he is firmly standing on.

He is scared that Taehyung might break and him and make him vulnerable. Though Jeongguk is sure that Taehyung is halfway there.

Maybe it was the moment when Yoongi talked to him in Italy. Yes maybe it was that---maybe it was the coffee that Taehyung makes for him because it's just what Jeongguk loves. Then his laugh and his little attempts to annoy Jeongguk. Or maybe when he messes around with Haechan and his giggles fill the whole lounge.

Or when he took him to the club just to play with his emotions and Yoongi has said those words to him which he didn't have the answer to.

Or probably when he looked in Taehyung's eyes and felt his resolve utterly break.

And how can Jeongguk forget when Taehyung asked him for ice-cream. The way he fidgeted and the surprise when Jeongguk agreed to take him out. Jeongguk can never forget the soft look on his face when Taehyung offered him the ice-cream.

Jeongguk didn't knew why he felt a tug at his heart when Taehyung said he is used to all the pain. Pain. Jeongguk had tortured him even when he knew he was abused but Jeongguk just wanted to hurt him and how much he regrets it now. He kept hurting him without thinking about the one who's suffering again and again.