May 5, 2005
Toni P.O.V
Although I had some good times and some bad times with Ty the bad just continued to out weigh the good from being beaten numbers of time to finding out I was pregnant and then having a miscarriage because he thought I cheated on him with Keri and to all the countless time I continued to love him but he just continued to beat me down physically and verbally until the ultimate heartbreak of finding out he was married with twin girls on the way I continuously ask my self what did I do to deserve that you know maybe I didnt love him the way I should've maybe I shouldn't have called him names or been so dependent on him with certain things and maybe my life would've turned out totally different
I dont know what I could've done but I do know I have to pick myself up and move past this hurt not just for me but for my boys so today I'm going to Kenny house for a BBQ and because both of our families are so close we always have them together so this should help cheer me up a lot
Atlanta, Georgia
Kenny House
Denim- MOMMY!!!
Toni- Hey Den! I missed you buddy
Denim- I missed you more! Are you happy again?
Toni- What do you mean?
Denim- Well at home you were always crying or sad about uncle ty leaving which made me very sad but now you look happy again and very beautiful
Toni- *smiling* Thanks Den and yes I'm happy again I know I was sad for a while but now I'm happy again and looking forward to moving to a new house! what do you think about that?
Denim- Yaayyyyy!! A new house can I have a spider man room!?!
Toni- Of course you can now go play. I love you den!
Denim- I love you to mommy!
Kenny- Hey Tone *hugs her*
Toni- Hey Ken how are you
Kenny- I'm good how are you
Toni- I'm better. Thanks for letting the boys stay here last weekend They had a lot of fun
Kenny- No problem they were lots of fun and Brandon and Dylan had fun to I think they liked ganging up on me
Toni- I'm sure. Where's Tracey at I didnt see her when I came in
Kenny- She moved out
Toni- O why what happened
Kenny- Were getting divorced
