The misfit

Chapter 20: Make it up to me?

As sorry as I can be, hope you all had a great Christmas and New year!

Here we were, back on my sofa like we were all those months back. I didn't know what to feel to be completely honest. I'm mad, livid even yet a part of me feels comfort from this man sitting besides me.

He used me, he's a taker and I'm a giver.

He's just like all the other guys who see my body before they see me, he's toxic and I don't need him.

I'm telling myself these things as this is the truth but my body seems to disagree as I start to feel all flustered as he scoots closer to me.

"I guess I have some explaining to do then, ha," he laughed.

The audacity.

"Why the fuck are you laughing, even if it is sarcastic laughter, do you know what you put me through! I felt like a quick fuck, i still feel that way, you used me for my body just to get off and now you have the fucking audacity to sit here and expect me to except your probably shit show of an apology, am I correct?" I practically spat at him.

I don't think I'm over reacting at all to be honest, I let him into my home to help him, so that he could have somewhere to live. Yes he kept making payments but I can just transfer them back into his account, which I will be doing, I don't have the willpower to listen to this apology.

"Lucy, look-"

"NO!" I shouted. "You don't get to just walk in here and explain yourself, you can't turn up after 6 months and excerpt me to be sitting here waiting for your return, I have a bit more pride in myself than that,"

"I deserve a chance to talk don't you think? If you don't like what you here after I've spoken I'll leave and never come back but please just hear me out okay?" He had a fair point but I'm just not in the mood right now to deal with him.

"Looks Natsu I'm willing to listen to you but please not tonight, I need to sleep on this and have some time to just think, come round tomorrow for dinner, then you can explain yourself okay?" That's the best I can offer.

He seemed a bit fed up and tired but how does he expect me to act after all of this. This is the best compromise.

"Okay that's fair enough but I know I'm stepping over my boundaries here but I haven't got somewhere to stay and technically this is still half of my place so-"
"You can sleep in the sofa and that's final, don't try and talk to me until I'm ready, we are not discussing anything until diner, that's final,"

Why do I let him do this honestly.

"Okay let me grab my things and then I'll leave you until you're ready," he smiled after this and I felt my appeal slightly crack.

"Sounds like a plan to me,"

And just like that he's out the door again but with the intent to return, I don't know what just happened but he's back and staying with me again.

Is this a bit of déjà vu?

It's been a minute I must say, I read through this whole book the other day for the first time in years and omg how my writing has changed and how I have changed. I was soooo into fairy tail and now I still love it but barely watch it. I'm sorry for the inconstant updates but I will finish this so don't worry.

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