Janoskians Fan Fiction (A Daniel Sahyounie Story)

Chapter 18

Luke Anthony Mark Brooks just told me he loves me and I said it too... Was I lying? Do I love him? Do I still love Daniel? What the fuck if wrong with me why am I still thinking about Daniel, he just kicked me out of his house an left me crying on the side of the street! What if Luke couldn't come and I was stuck!? Argh doesn't matter I was at the Brooks brothers house with Jai in the lounge room watching TV now. I had my headphones in listening to Trey Songz new album 'Chapter V' on repeat and off in my own world lost in my thoughts running around Luke and Daniel and what was happening.

Sure Luke has been there for me and we have very similar sense of humors and we just click but there is always the way I see him and it's like a brother, he is my long lost brother that I found in this world then there's Daniel my perfect guy, everything about him makes me feel weak inside like I want to melt just by his touch. Why couldn't that happen when Luke kissed me? I wanted that feeling with Luke, to feel like there was nothing on this planet but us two and nothing else matters. And another thought popped into my mind, what would of happened if I never met Daniel or any of the janoskians for that matter? Would my life be better or worse? Would I actually have any friends other then them? Luckly I have left school forever and didn't have to worry about it anymore it was the last thing I needed to stress about at times like this.just at that point heart attack came on... Wow not a mood changer or anything!

I heard a throat being cleared and turned my head abit to fast for my brain to respond, I felt dizzy but still looked at the man who cleared his throat.. It was Beau and used his head to signal that him and Luke had finished their private talk and I was allowed to go see Luke, I got up and walked down the hallway and knocked on the door and gently pushed it open just incase he didn't want me to come in. He patted the spot next to him on Jai's bed with a warming smile. I looked at him not knowing what to say or do but he broke that very awkward silence thank god! 'so that kiss was pretty intense aye' I felt a little embarrassed but still confused as for my feelings for Luke I gave him a simple nod and kind smile, he was a little thrown back by such a simple reply from me 'you didn't mean it did you Renee?' I looked down ashamed and guilty for leading Luke on..'I don't know what my feelings are or who they are for but that moment yes I meant that kiss and I didn't regret it because it is helping me decide what I want and who my feelings are for' He seemed to understand what I meant but didn't reply but stood up and closed the door not gently but he didn't slam it. Beau came in not long after that 'hey what happened with Luke he ran out of the house and look like he was heading for Daniels house?' I didn't need to even ask I got up and jumped in beaus car while I waited for him and Jai to lock the house and grab there shoes.

Beau drove 20km over the speed limit, normally I would freak out about that but we needed to find Luke before anything happens, we all know what he's like when he gets angry.

We got to Daniels house and saw Luke's shoes at the front door and the door wide open. I jumped out of the car and ran straight inside to find no one? Where the fuck are they? I waited for the boys to come inside, Jai went to Daniels room and I followed him very closely, Jai opened the door slightly just so we could see inside without them knowing it was open. They were sitting on te bed talking? Jai and I exchanged confussed looks and decided to not desturb but stayed to listen on there conversation. Sneaky I know. We could barley hear them and it was so distracting, Lukes face had alot anger in it when he spoke 'how did you make her love you the way she did, the way she looks at youshe has never looke at me like that, she still looks at you with the same lust in her eyes' Daniels face was vey hard to figure out, I could always tell what he wa thinking or what he was going to say next, it was great that we could do bestfriend things like that but also be madly inlove at the same time. I watched Daniel and still tried to work out what he was thinking 'I did force her make her, I only treated her the way I treat something that I love more then anything in this world... Are you two you know.. Together?' he whispered that last word as though torn at his heart to the image of that being a possibility. I couldn't handle it anymore I punched the doorframe in anger and ran back to beaus car and slammed the door shut and locked them. I needed to think and I couldn't do that with the boys opening the door and disturbing me. I sat there for a good 2 hours looking at my surroundings and not very often see one of the boys heads peak out the front door to see if I was still there or I'd beau car was still okay.

I got up, unlocked the car door and jumped out the car and became my walk, I didn't know where I was going but being so close to Daniels house and Luke was to much for me to think straight, I had been walking for awhile still unaware where I was headed but I found myself at the river. I walked down to the riverbank luckily it was night time and no one was there, I stripped down and jumped in. The warm water splashing on my face was so refreshing, all my cares seemed to disappeared as soon as I hit that water and I couldn't be more happy. I was floating on my back alone in the gorgeous warm water without a care in the world. My hair was flowing underneath me slightly touching my lower back as I layed there.

The moonlight light was shinning on the water giving it a beautiful glow, there were millions of stars in the sky, I finally had time to think and just by the tinniest significance of the star help me reason how all my problems could soon be taken away, even though that mean hurting one of the boys but the heart wants what the heart wants. I swam back over to the river bank and grabbed my close. I needed to get to Daniels house I just hoping they were all still there, they deserved to know what I had chosen. I started walking and getting changed at the same time, I couldn't help but smile at the thought of guy I was about to tell I love him and mean every single letter of those 3 words. I love him!