I Miss You

Richard

I woke up to see I was upside down. I was able to get out of the car. I found my phone. I then went on the other side of the car and tried to get the medic out. I was able too. I then got his his phone. I then saw a big piece of glass sticking out of his chest. Blood was coming out of his mouth. He had a big gash on his head. What have I done? I called for help.

The medic that worked on him seemed to know him. "Partner please stay."

"You know him?"

"Yes, this is my work partner."

I saw his oxygen level was 55. I saw his partner give him oxygen. I knew this was bad. I felt so bad.
I went with them to the hospital.

I was sitting in the waiting room and the medic looked at me. "My name is Jaxx Lyric."

"I am Richard Kruspe."

"Can you explain to his family and two kids what happened?"

"Yes."

"I will be here with you. Also give this to his wife."

It was his phone and a note. His wife and kids came into the waiting room. I didn't look at her. I just handed her the medics phone and note.

"I am sorry. He got into a car with me. He said that my friends were hurt. He was quite the whole time. The car hydroplaned and it was raining really hard. I lost vision. Then we rolled a few times and ended upside down. He had a big gash on his head. He had blood coming out of his mouth and a big piece of glass in his chest. He wasn't breathing very well. I hate myself. They rushed him into surgery."

"Richard, we don't hate you for a accident."

I looked up to see Arielle, Emil, and Lili. I was so confused. Arielle saw the confusion in my face.

"Richard, you might want get that cut on your arm looked at. Also the other hospital made a mistake.  You also have a gash on your head."

I passed out. I could feel someone touching me. I think it was the medic. I could feel him pick me up and move me.

I woke up to find Emil sitting next to me. Great it wasn't a dream. I noticed I had a iv in my arm. I noticed Emil was looking at the bed next to me. I turned my head to look at what he was looking at. I noticed a lot of machines hooked to the person in the bed next to me. I saw that Emil was silently crying.

"Emil."

He got up and got the doctor. I was unhook but I was told the shock I was in he wanted to keep me for awhile. But, I was allowed to move around.

I followed Emil. I sat next to Lili. I looked at the person in the bed. They were hooked to a bunch of machines and tubes. There were wires everywhere. The person looked lifeless. What have I done?

"I am so sorry guys. I should have tried to find a way to stop driving. This is all my fault."

"They don't know if he will make it or not. The glass punctured his left lung. He already had problems breathing do to surviving the plague." Said Arielle.

"Can I ask what that letter said?"

"It was a song he wrote and last wishes. That if he didn't get a chance to say he forgive all five of you that he does. That he loved me and the kids."

"This Medic I was told on the way here saved Till, Pix, Oliver, Schneider, and Flake saved him. I tried."

"Richard, don't be hard on yourself."

"I was the worse to Paul and never got to apologize."

She looked at me. I grabbed the medics lifeless hand. "Richard, it isn't too late to apologize to Paul."

"What do you mean?"

"I think you need this more then I do. This is the cell phone you handed me."

I took it and put it my pocket. I still had my clothes on. The medic's hand were cold. I felt bad. I then walked over to the corner of my room and sat down. I saw Emil, Lili, and Arielle say goodbye to the medic. Arielle came over to my side of the room.

"Here when you get out you can use this."

She tossed me keys. It was the keys to his car. Then she left. I got into my pocket and got out the iPhone and turned it on. It was a pic of all of us on the lock screen and on the background it was Paul, Arielle, Emil, and Lili.
No, it can't be can it? The voice it too deep. I went through the phone and seen notes and pictures. I realized it was Paul's phone. I realized the medic was Paul.

I walked over to the other side of the room. I grabbed the medics lifeless hand once again. I sat down but still had the medics hand in mine. I started to cry.

"Paul, I am so sorry for the way I treated you. I am sorry I did this to you. This is all my fault. Please stay with all us. We all miss you. I miss you friend."

I cried myself to sleep in the chair next to Paul. I had nightmares about the accident. They were bad. I did have to have 14 stitches on my arm. I had to have 8 staples in my head.

I woke up to see Paul's bed was gone. No, please tell me he didn't die. I walked back to my bed. I cried myself back to sleep. I had more nightmares.

I was screaming and felt someone touch me. I bolted awake. I looked to see Flake and Arielle next to me. Flake had his hand on my shoulder. Arielle went and got the doctor.

The doctor walked into the room. "What is wrong?"

"I keep seeing that accident. I killed him."

Flake and Arielle looked at each other. "No, he is here. Come with me."

I followed them and looked in the bed next to me. I noticed more wires, tubes, and machines. What have I done. I broke down and cried. I sat down and grabbed my friends free lifeless hand in mine and put my head down and cried.

"I am so sorry Paul I fuck up. I see how bad I did."

At that moment several machines went off at once. The doctor was still in the room. He basically had another come in and everything went dark I don't know what happened next.