Suicide Note

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My sister keep complaining about how Mom blame her from all the problems but didn't realize that she doing the same thing to me ..

she didn't realize that she's more lucky cause she have someone to talk to while i don't have one.

She didn't realize that all the pain that she's been through is doubled on what's mine ..

she's always been love because she is beautiful ..

she's always been love by her grandparents while mine? 

 i don't even remember their faces ..

she didn't realize that i gave up my own dignity for her .

I still have Anxiety and still suffering from depression because of what her husband did to me ..

but still i pretend that I'm completely fine..

I pretended even though I'm slowly dying inside ..

and she still have a guts to say right to my face that I'm just thinking of myself.

know my pain first .

know how hard for me to face everyday life ..

You all destroyed me . 

And I don't know to pick up the pieces of myself anymore.