Scenario

11. | Her

After the night when Taehyung and I broke up, I felt numb really numb to the point that I wasn't even sure if I was alive if I was breathing. Those painful eight words stab my heart and I thought I was ready for it. Days became months, it's been 8 months after that scenario and I'm still not okay?

I want to believe I'm okay.

I want to believe I'm fine.

But I'm not...

Please save me.

Please come back.

I miss him...

But I can't be selfish. I can't just keep him in here with me... I don't want him to be not happy. I mean that's the only sole reason why I let him go.

Please don't forget about the things I said at that moment even when I was shaking.

If I get used to not being with him

When that time comes, when it's the time

Maybe by then, I could finally see myself smiling as I continue to live.

But before that could happen, I for once need to love myself.

I'm the one I should love in this world.

I totally forgot about myself, I literally forgot how to cherish my own self...

How can I love someone again or even smile again if I don't start loving myself?

I can't. It's not possible.

It would be a mask if I put myself out there in the world smiling, loving as if nothing was wrong as if I love myself. It's time to give myself, the self-love that I need to recover and maybe through this I could finally be free.

Like any other flower, I need water— love and sun— care to bloom once again.

I want to love in this world.