The Girl and the Shark

Chapter one (pt. 2)

I walked to the door entrance to leave this hell hole. Don't get me wrong, I would go here every week, but seeing Lydia, congratulating me was hard. I want to push her against the wall and kiss her like no tomorrow.

But if I get close enough, the memories of me hurting her, not on purpose, would come back. She would hate me then. She's the only person I care about, and I want to watch over her, rather then to leave her alone forever, or get to know her again.

But I keep having to remind myself, that she's not the same person when I was with her. I promise to tell no one how everything happened, I keep to myself, and make myself the loner.

I sighed and looked up to the bright sky. It was cooling, as it whipped my few stragglers hair to my face. I smiled in peace, until I heard my name in repeat.

"Benjamin!" "Benjamin!" a feminine voice called out. I whipped my head around to see a beautiful girl running toward me.

Lydia West.

"Lydia." I whispered under my breath.

She finished running up to me and paused, "what?" she asked confused.

I cleared my throat, "uh.. nothing... I just said 'what' out of confusion." I straightened my posture.

She huffed a breath before talking again, "ok, well, I was wondering if you wanted to, you know.... Hang out sometime." she gave me that smile.

That same smile that got me into trouble. That same smile that drove my crazy. That same smile that I dreamt about ever since she lost her memory. Ever since I met her.

"I-it's getting kind of late." I said, looking at the ground, avoiding eye contact while speaking like a retard.

"Oh." she said with a bit of disappointment in her tone. "Well then, I will see you around town." she smiled. Yes, unfortunately, we live in a small town, where I have to look at you everyday and watch, while my mind claws me to speak, kiss or touch your again.

"Alright." I gave a weak smile.

"Is there something wrong? After you sang that beautiful song, you shouldn't. Whose the special someone?"

The last one caught me off guard, so whipped my head around to look at her, "what?"

She looked awkward before repeating what she said, "I said, whose that special someone?" she repeated.

My heart pained as she finished that dreadful question.

I couldn't speak, my voice was lost and stolen from my heart that silenced it. I was stunned. I visibly swallowed, "yes." I replied.

She tilted her head, "oh! Who is it?! I promise I won't tell." she said seriously.

I nodded and smiled, visibly showing my dimples. "it's a girl... Named Lila." I shaded, quickly covering her name with a similar name.

The pain of not being able to hold her was getting to my head, quickly. I did something I couldn't control myself to do.

I kissed her.

My hand made it's way on her waste as she didn't respond. After a few more kisses, she responded.

The memories flowed through my mind of her glorious first kiss with me. She was a natural, and I teased her afterwards for months.

I shivered when she licked my bottom lip for an entrance. Just before I did, I pushed her away.

She stumbled back in shock. She looked at me with wide eyes as she was confused.

"W-why did you push me away?"

"I had to."

I left it at that, then I turned around and walked away. My feet were carrying iron my the ankles as I walked away. They kept getting heavier by the steps.

If I can do this, I can walk away and never see her again.