The hunted

Chapter 31 The return of Ben

"And you're sure she's sleeping okay ?" I asked worried

"Yes Andy,  I'm sure." Evan answerd with a chuckle as he playfully rolled his eyes at me.

"And is she -"

"Yes Andy . You've asked me all of this 5 minutes ago."

"I'm sorry... I just miss her so much ..." I said sadly , looking down at my feet.

"Hey , I know it's hard but I want you to know that I'm here for you . And every time that I'm not spending with you , I'm spending with her. " he said reassuringly , trying to make me feel better . 

Don't get me wrong I totally appreciate what he was doing for me as well as for Kenzie , but there's a big part of me that wanted to do that myself. Be there myself.

"Lets change the subject. You know that friend of yours , Ben ? He's a handful. Most difficult Donor we've had in years." He exaggerated, leaning back on the couch.

"Yup,  that sounds like Ben ." I said laughing , thinking back to Ben and how difficult he CAN be.

I mean , after the things he's done I don't really see eye to eye with him or see him in the same light anymore. He's changed so much since being in here. It's like he's gotten more ... aggressive.  But despite all of that ,it didn't make me think less of him as my friend.  I mean ,it didn't make him an overall  bad person right? People make mistakes. They lose their cool. But deep down , I believe he's still the same Ben I've come to know .

"That's not even the best part , last week he -"

As I listend to Evan go on and on about Ben and the things he's done and the way he's been acting , my mind couldn't help but drift into a far away place . I couldn't help but wonder ...

"Evan ? Is Ben Kenzie's father ?" I suddenly asked - softly above a whisper - making him stop his rant about Ben.

I watched as he looked at me with a look of shock .

"What ?No! What makes you think that? " he said with clear disgust and distaste as I understood where he must be coming from,  but the possibility was there.

"I mean ,it's not impossible ... anything could've happend. Luke is the father of Mason - who was born a day before Kenzie- so why would is seem so absurd if two close friends got pregnant by two close friends? " I tried to explain.

"This doesn't make any sense Andy. Just a few weeks back you didn't want anything to do with him and now you're hoping he's Kenzie's father ? Where is this sudden heart change  coming from? " he asked confused as he watched me intently .

I fiddled with my fingers in my lap , not knowing myself where this heart change came from but also not knowing how to explain that to him.

"I know you don't see Ben the way that I do , but that's only because you don't know him the way that I do. He's soft and caring . Loving and charming . He says the sweetest things and underneath all of that rough exterior he's actually a really big teddy bear. "

"Okay? " he said with an arched brow.

"You know , I really loved him once. He was my first real boyfriend and I loved him with all my heart . So it just makes sense that I would love him even more if he were to be Kenzie's father. I mean , it would be like we still had a connection you know ? Something that tied us together for life. Just thinking about him ,holding Kenzie,  playing with her , bonding with her and being her father just the thought  warms my hear-"

"Enough! He's not her father! I am !"  He shouted loudly , as I first noticed how mad he got. His face showed pure anger and jealously,  as mine showed no emotion at all.

"What ?" I squeaked , barely audible.

"I said, Ben's not her father cause I am. " He stated once again , still really mad.

"How ? I mean , that's impossible..." 

"Impossible ? Not if you work in the military and have access to everything,  including who donates to whom."

His anger still hasn't subsided and to be honest , I didn't know how to react or what to say back. Afraid that anything I said next would push him over the edge.

"I...I don't know what to say ..."

"You can say thank you." He stated harshly.

"Thank you ? For what ?"

"For me being Kenzie's father and not that dimwit. "

"Excuse me ?" I said slightly taken back by his harsh tone.

"You heard me ."

"You know , I think you should leave now. " I said hurt by the way he's acting and the way he's handling this.

"No. We're not done with this conversation. This is where you should be showering me with kisses and tell me how much you love me and how happy you are that Kenzie is ours." 

"Yeah , maybe. Maybe if you've had said it in a nicer way and acted more mature about this in the first place . But you didn't. We can continue this conversation when you're done acting like a big ass and apologize. Goodbye Evan." I said directing him to the door as he stood stunned.

I know it probably wasn't the best idea to make him leave. Especially  after he dropped a bomb like that. But why would I let him stay if the only thing he's doing is talking bad about my friends?

I had to admit there was a big part of me that was happy that he could be Kenzie's father but there was an even bigger part that told me he's lying and just covering up the fact that he was jealous of the connection Ben and I shared together. 

If he still wanted this , he'll have to make it up to me . And do a damn good job at it too.

"I see ... listen Andy , I didn't mean to-"

"Just go Evan. Please..." I said sad and a little guilty but I knew I couldn't stand to go through this conversation any longer right now.

"If that's what you want... Bye , Andy. " he said as I closed the door behind him.

A tear fell and rolled down my cheek as if it knew the way already. I did cry a lot. And I'm not ashamed of it. If finding out your boyfriend is jealous of your friend - who means so much to you - and that the same jealous deprived boyfriend could possibly be the father of your baby , isn't a good enough reason to cry , then I didn't know what was.

My whole life was a mess. This was a mess. How do you recover from this?  Go on like you used to , if everything you know was a lie ? That everyone you know , has been hiding things from you ?

Simple.

You don't.

What did you think!? Personally this was a really difficult chapter to write since my ideas for this one were all over the place . So connecting the dots was a challenge but I think I did it pretty good. What did you think?  Thoughts on Evan's little explosion ? Is he lying or telling the truth?  Let me know in the comment section below.  Until next time my Lovelies thanks for reading ❤❤❤❤