The hunted

Chapter 37 will you be my forever ?

It's been 2 agonizing weeks since I've last seen Evan , since we left him behind. 

Each day I found myself staring out the window , waiting for him to pull up and embrace me in the warmest hug.  I missed him so much ... especially now with our little boy's arrival coming up soon. I would hate if he had to miss it.

Liam has been a really good help - despite my objection at first - he took really good care of us and even helped out around the house a little . Plus , I had someone to talk to - granted it's not the first person that came to mind when I thought  of having a conversation with - but atleast I wasn't as lonely anymore. 

Kenzie's been growing so much lately and all her little features that make her , well,  her , was starting to show.

She had the most beautiful brown , hazel eyes and pink soft lips and a head full of dark brown hair , just like her dad . Looking at her just made me miss him more.

"Morning." A chirpy Liam said from behind as I continued washing the dishes , stealing a glance outside every once and a while.

"Still nothing huh ?"

"Still nothing. " I said sadly , turning around and grabbing him some breakfast.

"I don't get why he hasn't returned yet. He told me 3 days max he would be back , so this whole situation... it just doesn't feel right ."

"I know . I feel the same way , something has to be up and whatever it is , it's starting to scare me . "

It was the truth. I wasn't going to act naive as if the thought HADN'T crossed my mind yet , but it did. I had jumped to conclusions,  I did think about the worst , and I couldn't help it , that was who I am. Yet, there was still a small part of my former optimistic self , that hoped this was all in my head and that he would okay.

"If you'd like ... I could go check it out ? See what I can find out ? "

"No ... I wouldn't put your life in danger for my own selfish needs . And besides , we need you back here at home cause I can't cope with everything alone ."

"Okay,  what about if I ride up to the mountain and go see Emma, it's not that far from here and that way I can try and find out what she knows since she still has contact inside ?"

"I mean,  I guess... " I said considering the idea. It could work , I mean , Emma DID still talk to some of her friends back inside - who refused to leave that death whole ,heaven knows why - so she might be able to pull some strings for an old friend.

"Then it's settled." He said , clapping his hands together and getting up from the table.

"When are you planning on leaving ?"

"Um , now ?"

"Now ?"

"Yeah. The sooner I leave,  the sooner I can come back. Can't leave you alone for too long " he said with a chuckle , grabbing his coat.

"Pff , whatever. " I said rolling my eyes while clearing the table.

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3 hours later and he still hadn't returned. I thought that he would be back by lunch time but even that has come and gone. But they said no news was good news right? 

Oh who am I kidding ?

It didn't take 3 hours to phone someone and to say 'yeah no need to worry , he's okay '

But I couldn't think about this. It would only upset me and drain all of my energy contemplating all the possible out comes , and I needed to stay calm , not only to look after Kenzie but also to prevent this little munchkin inside of me from coming early.

I decided to make myself a cup of tea as I lit the fireplace and took a seat on the sofa waiting.

And not a minute too soon I saw the car headlights shining through the window. 

At first I ran outside hoping - praying - it was Evan,  only to be slightly dissapointed that it was Liam instead.

But that's still something.

I rushed outside into the crisp air towards him , anxious to hear what he had found out.

"Slow down Andrea,  let me get out first. " he said mockingly,  switching off the engine , and climbing out.

"Where's your jacket?  You want to catch a cold ? " he said, taking off his jacket and handing it to me as I took it just to avoid any further stalling.

"So ? What did you find out ? Is he on his way ? Is he okay?  Is he-"

"Let's get you inside first missy. " he said with another chuckle.

I know he meant well and all , don't get me wrong but sometimes - especially in an anxious time like this - his over protective brotherly act tended to get on my nerves. 

I walked over to the fireplace and sat down,  giving him back his jacket.

"Okay. I'm inside,  I don't have a cold , Kenzie's asleep , now tell me what you know. " I said impatiently as he sat opposite me - on the table infront of me-

"Emma and the girls sends their love. "

"Okay . But what did you find out ?"

"Oh ! And the guys too of course. They all miss you terribly,  especially Piper ."

"Yeah , yeah I miss them all too but what did Emma say ? Did she call her friends back at the base ?" I tried to pry the information from him since he wasn't telling me fast enough  .

"She did. "

"Yeah ? And ?"

"Andrea I -"

"Oh stop it with this formal hoo-ha , I've told you at multiple occasions that you can call me Andy,so please for goodness sake call me Andy. " I said way more aggressive than I attended to , but could you blame me ? I was trying to find out crucial information and still at a time like this he had time for formalities. 

"Andy I , I'm so sorry ..." he said softly.

"Sorry for what ? Did Emma not find anything out then ?"

"She did ..." he trailed off.

"So ? I don't get it , what are you sorry for ?" I said with a chuckle,  trying to lighten his mood.

That's until he looked up , looked into my eyes and took my hands in his .

"He's gone Andy. He didn't make it ..."

"What are you talking about!? You're lying ! Is this some kind of joke ? Cause if it is , it's not very funny." I said,  yanking my hands away from him and his embrace.

"I'm telling the truth Andy. Emma said that after he left us , the soldiers captured him and made him confess for what he has done . They then eliminated him for treason and obstruction of law. I'm so sorry Andy , I really did think he would make it back..." he said softly and by the time he was done explaining I started crying.

How could it be ? How could that happen to him ? If only he had left with us and not turn around ? If only I didn't go along with the plan we would still be there. Sure I would be locked up like a caged animal , doomed to a life of breeding,  but atleast he would've still been alive and still be able to see his children grow up ...

I cried that night until I physically couldn't anymore. It was like my heart  has been ripped from my chest , leaving a hole in it's dark and empty place. I felt numb , distant from the world , at a loss for life .

I have lost the man of my dreams , my soulmate , and all that I would ever have left of him is our children and my freedom. Yet still,  none if it made up for his absence in my life today , tomorrow and forever.

This was a really difficult chapter to write. I've spent weeks thinking how to continue the story after that and i think I did a pretty good job if I do say so myself 👌 it's sad that I had to let him die but that's just what I think was best for the story. I would love to hear your thoughts on it though? My next chapter - if I choose there to be  one- will probably be my epilogue. So long my wolf pack  until next time ❤❤❤❤