7:05p.m the clock read as I looked over at it and focused back on the t.v watching Tom & Jerry with Eissa he was busy laughing at the silly things they were doing.
This alone time that I was having I got to think even more about my son father, what it is that could have made him just hate me out of the blue. He was so sweet and kind at first but as time went he started changing he didn't like the way I dressed and wanted me to cover up next thing I know he wanted me to convert to his religion. It was all just becoming too much and I felt like I was suffocating in that marriage.
He was verbally abusive as well he would just say what he wanted to say and would not even be sorry about it. Called me out of my name so many times I lost count but the last straw was the verbal abuse during the pregnancy I just couldn't take the stress not when I wanted a healthy baby.
A knock at the door sounded making me get up from the bed when I quickly checked the time it was 9:30p.m I picked up my son sliding on my shoes and went to open the door. "Let's go see who's at the door huh baby?" I tickled his sides making him laugh as he laid his head on my shoulder.
I opened the door and there he stood looking good as ever in just his Adidas sweats and Nike Airfoce. I smiled looking at him.
"Hey stranger." He greeted still standing by the door. "Hey to you too stranger." I answered back both of us just standing there looking at each other not saying anything. I moved to the side allowing him in and he put the bag he had down and opened up his arms for me and I just fell into his embrace I honestly missed him so much.
"It's so good to see you Janet." He kissed the top of my head and let go of me. Eissa just looked between us.
"So this is the man that has stolen your heart forever huh?" He tickled him and he smiled stretching his hands out for him and he took him from my arms. "Yes he is and it seems like he likes you already, He doesnt like just anyone holding him unless it's his aunts or uncles." I smiled sitting down on the couch watching him play with Eissa making him laugh out loud.
"I got you something check in the bag I got lil' man something as well." I opened the bag taking out the strawberries I laughed looking at him and he just shrugged his shoulders sitting down next to me. I looked in the bag again taking out a small Bentley toy car.
"E look at your gift baby boy." I kissed his cheek giving it to him he obviously tried to put it in his mouth but I pulled it away quickly. "Let me get his play pen so I can put him down and we can talk."
I went and got his playpen putting him down with his toys and then went back to sit down on the couch. "Can I get you anything to drink?" "Nah I'm good lets talk it's been a minute since we saw each other we need to catch up." We both nodded and went quiet again for a while I guess not sure how to start the conversation.
"So how have you been?" I asked him. "I've been good real good matter of fact working like crazy you know grind never stops. How have you been doing?" The question I was dreading to answer cause this man knew me and he would know when I'm lying to him. I scratched at my ear and he took my hand into his looking right in my eyes.
"I know it's been a tough couple of months for you and if you not ready to talk about it I totally understand that but if you ever want to talk or to just cry you know you can always call me and I'll be here for you." He told me still looking at me and I knew he meant very well. Apart from my parents and siblings even Gil, Jermaine was the only man to truly know me and accept me just the way I am he always knew how to lift my spirit when I was in a damp mood and he could always make me laugh.
"Thank you Mauldin. It's just so much happening that I don't even know where to start you know sometimes I feel like crying and throwing stuff around but then I look at my baby and I know I have to be strong for him so I just suck it up and keep on moving." This was really tough on me and everyday it was weighing heavy on me but I could not let it wear me down.
"Janet it is okay to breakdown and cry that doesn't make you weak at all it just shows that you are human and you hurt too. Crying is healthy you need to release everything that you holding on otherwise it will just make you bitter as time goes."
He was right but I just did not want to cry infront of people I did not want anyone to see me at my weak point. "I can tell that you want to cry right now but you feel like I am going to judge you. I won't judge you just let it all out." He pulled me to him and I just sobbed on his chest everything all coming back now and the tears would not stop as he rubbed my back in slow soothing circles.
"It's okay you are not alone I got you okay just let it all out." I just cried on his chest for over fifteen minutes I just cried letting everything out. When I stopped crying I pulled away from him and he wiped my tears.
"Are you done being a cry baby now?" He asked making me laugh and I pouted moving away from him. And he started tickling my sides. "Aww is the cry baby angry at me?" He asked I laid on my back trying to move his hands but he wouldn't stop.
"Jeeeermaiijne stop please I'm gonna pee myself." I told him but he still tickled me hovering over me. "Pleeeaaassee stop." I laughed trying to catch my breath from laughing so much. He stopped tickling me and just looked at me. Everything seemed to stop and as he leaned down to kiss me I closed my eyes feeling his lips on mine. They were always so soft and after months of no contact with the opposite sex this kiss felt so good.
He quickly pulled away. "I-I'm so sorry Janet I shouldn't ha..." I cut him off pulling him down into a passionate kiss letting out a moan as he gripped my sides. I looked to my side as he nibbled on my neck seeing my baby asleep.
"We can stop this right now Jan we don't have to do anything if you not ready." He nibbled on my ear whispering in it. "Uhm..that is a good idea and I need to put my son down it's too late. The time was now going on 01:30a.m
"Yeah I should get going as well need to handle some business tomorrow." He got up and I stood up as well carefully picking up Eissa and he snuggled to me.
"Thank you for coming even though you never told me the little birdy's name." He laughed walking over to the door. "I'll let you know next time I see you." He opened the door turning back to face me. "I don't even know when I'll see you again." He had a smirk on his face.
"You will be seeing me again don't worry for now go get some sleep beautiful I'll call you tomorrow." He pecked my lips walking out and I closed the door locking it. And went to put down Eissa and went to my bedroom to sleep.
Getting in bed I turned off the television and the light as I got comfortable in bed about to close my eyes and sleep a text came through my phone.
Mauldin: It was really good seeing you again after so many years Cheeks and I'll be seeing you again. Good night cry baby.
I was smiling from ear to ear seeing him today really made me see things a bit differently and that maybe after all things wouldn't be so tough after all. Another text came through just as I was about to sleep turning over I picked up my phone letting out a sigh seeing that it was from Wissam.
Wissam: I am coming to take my son back to England with me tomorrow and don't even think about fighting me on this. A son needs to be with his father Janet and you know that. You left without even telling me you thought I wouldn't find you but I have my connections and my ways."
He had another thing coming if he thought he could just come here and take my son away from me. I was more than ready for him. Putting my phone back on the night stand I pulled the covers closing my eyes and drifting off to some much needed sleep.
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