Cheating on my baby mom

Is it easy to forgive ?

11:43 pm... you can't believe what you just wrote Shawn. You know that without him you can't live. You are married almost a year now and it feels like yesterday where you fell in love with him.
You look at your empty ring finger.
"But no you can't forgive him", you thought.
You start crying. You have so many thoughts in your head.
>Was Camila better then me? How long is he cheating on me? When did it start? Did he fuck us both in the same night...< You remember many nights you both had sex and he left shortly afterwards.
>Will he leave me for ..< bzzzz, your old apartment door rings. "How could that be ?" You open the door. Shawn. You want to close it but he stops you.
Shawn: "Babe, wait."
He can see that you've been crying for a long time.
X/Y: "I can't do this right now."
He opens the door further. He walks in and just hugs you. But it wasn't a normal hug. It's a hug you give someone when they feel really lonely.
You wanted to push him away but you couldn't.
Shawn: "Babe, can we just move on. I will explain myself but can you just listen."
X/Y: "You know that I can't live without you! And I don't know why you would cheat on me! What if I would go and fuck Cameron Dallas?"
Shawn stops hugging you and looks at you.
Shawn: "Remember when we had the first time sex?"
X/Y: „Of course I know !"
(///Soon available in "Past Love///)
"Shawn continues with a lower voice: „You asked me afterwards what happened between Camila and me and I just told you that we were together and that she's not important anymore. I mean she's not as important as you to me but ..."
You start crying again and shout: „But still you fucked her !!.!"
He pulls you closer to him again and says: "She was my first love, I lost my virginity to her. Almost all my old songs are about her. I should've told you before."
You push him away and go in the bathroom to wipe of your running tears. He follows you.
You close the door quick and lock it.
You slowly sit down at the door and realize Shawn did the same on the other side.
X/Y: „So are you telling me that we are breaking up?"