Something About You

VII: Demi

I walk around Central Park, my hands wrap around me. I was thinking of what I should do.

My dad, well step dad, Eddie De La Garza, has given me a deal. I would travel to New York and live here for eight months, if I haven't found a job by then, then I must go back home and work for him. If I found a job before that, then I can stay here with his help and show him I could be a adult.

Since I suck at everything, I think I'm going to try singing.

My family and friends always compliment me about my singing, always say I sang really good and should be a singer.

I had a lot of thought on that, if I became a singer, I could help millions with my past experiences and help them out by voicing my thoughts. It would be a giant step and I would have to get use to with little privacy.

But, it would be worth it because it's my dream to become one.

I could help them and tell them that they're not alone, that I will always be there for them, maybe not physically but they will know.

I sigh, moving a piece of my hair away from my face as I sat on a public bench.

I didn't want to go back home, I wanted to stay here and make my dream come true. It's New York City for fuck's sake.

I glance at the lake in front of me, kids were by the fence, throwing pebbles. I smiled as their mothers stood near by, all chatting with each other but keeping a eye on their children.

I always wanted to be a mother, always wanted to have kids.

It was days like this, a cold November day, that I love to be outside even if I was trembling of the cold. I would walk around the streets of New York, taking pictures of all the famous events they have to offer and walk in between the immense crowd of people. New York is beautiful, I love everything about it.

Taking my phone out, I decided to call Nick since I haven't talk to him in the last couple of days, I was wondering how he and Ezra was doing. Why I haven't talk to him is because I've been thinking a lot, I didn't want to leave them when I'm just starting to like them. I want to be there for them, and in return, I want them to be there for me too. To me it seems that they haven't been really close to anybody else, it was only them. Just lonely souls, lonely. I wanted to change that, I didn't want them to be so lonely, I want them to get close to someone, maybe me.

But I also understand how they were feeling, thinking they were all alone with no one in the world to care about them. I know that feeling, ever since I broke up with Ethan. He left me brokenhearted, and who was there to pick up the pieces?

No one.

That's why I took the chance to escape to New York, to get away from everything and everyone.

I felt so alone when I got here, realizing I missed my sisters and parents. Sure, I miss them but they also know I wanted some time to myself. Some time to pick myself up again.

Letting go of a breath, my breath coming out into some puffs, I dial Nick's number.

"Hey," I mumble into the phone when he pick up. I heard him breathe out a sigh of relief and I scrunch up my face in confusion, why did he sound relieve?

"You okay?" I say and picked at the hem of my coat.

"Yeah, I just thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore." I love it that he's honest too.

"What do you mean? Of course I'll want to talk to you, why wouldn't I talk to you?" I say, looking around Central Park and saw that the kids left, hmm. They must've left when I was lost in my thoughts.

"Because I'm a father," He murmurs from the other side of the phone, if he said it even more quieter I wouldn't have catch what he said.

"So? I find that adorable, where's Ezra's mom, your girlfriend right?" I say, bitting down on my lower lip to hear his answer. I was nervous if he said he had a girlfriend or a wife, then I would know I should back off and be his friend instead.

He snorts. "Her? She's no where to be seen, I got no girlfriend. Ezra doesn't have a mom, he has me and Xavier." He says, I could detect the disappiontment and hurt in his words. Something must've gone down between those two.

"Ah, that must really suck." I say, feeling a little happy that he was single. Wait, who's Xavier? Is he his friend or boyfriend? Is Nick gay? If he is, that'll blow my chances completely out of the gutter. I respect people's sexuality, so if he was, I'll still be his friend and won't treat him differently.

"Yeah, it sucks for Ezra since he keeps asking where is she. Fucking bitch," He says, his voice tinted with disgust and rage at the end.

I frown, shit really must've went down. "And what do you tell him?"

"She's on vacation." He laughs, a bitter laugh.

My frown depended, my eyes squint in confusion as I stare at my boots. So Ezra doesn't have a motherly figure for him, or at least someone close to that?

"So Ezra doesn't have a motherly figure in his life?" I ask, my thumb tracing circles in my lap.

"Nope, for the last five years he hasn't." Nick says, blowing out a sigh. I heard chatter all around him, car beats, people chatting and loud noises. He must've been somewhere on the streets.

"That must be tough huh?" I say, standing up from the bench since my ass started to hurt. Grabbing my purse, I carried it on my shoulder as I walk through the trails of Central Park.

"Tell me about it," He says, sounding defeated. We went quiet over the phone for a moment before I spoke up.

"Who's Xavier?" I pipe up quietly.

He chuckles, I love it when he laughs. Makes me want to smile, so I did. "Xavier is my next door neighboor, he takes care of Ezra for me while I'm working. He's a really close friend to us, he also helps me pay the bills too." Saying this, I grin.

So I do have a chance.

"Cool, that's really cool." I say, smiling. I was looking at the ground, not really paying attention to what's in front of me.

"Yeah? Guess so, hey can I ask you something?"

At that, my heart perk up and it started to beat faster. Don't one always get nervous when they are asked that? I do, every time it happens to me, I get the slightlest nervous.

"S-Sure," I stammered.

"Wha-" I couldn't hear the rest of his question because I crash into a wall. I groan, realizing it was not a wall but instead a toned chest. My phone falls out of my hand, falling to the grass beside me as I regain my balance, the person quickly grabs me to steady me.

"Woah, you okay there?"

I gasp, realizing his too familiar voice and step away from him. I couldn't believe he was here, in front of me, looking like nothing happened between us but yes, something happen between us. I grab my phone, taking slow steps away from him as I stared at him, dumbfounded.

"Ethan." I breathe out, not believing that my ex stood right in front of me. Oh no, get him away from me!