Stand Out, Fit In

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   There are certain things...
Certain things in the world that people can't know about you, so you stay quiet and hold those emotions in.

  Someone comes in and sligthly pushed over your emotions, but then it all comes crashing. They think you're overreacting, they think you're making this way worse. But...

You got hurt...

   I told my friend Raiden (online buddy) this thing.

Think of my emotions like a small flame on an outside fireplace, take a small argument or an insult or something thats a little negative; thats like a gasoline soaked log. If you throw that into the fire then you get a huge fire, thats how it feels for me.

   It's true... That's how I felt from the smallest thing ever happening to me. Things always seem to get to me and I feel like I'm the weakest being alive.

  But in reality all humans are weak, they need to grow so much in order to know that feeling they've been feeling. They'll get used to it and soon recover faster. But faster does not always mean better. To go back to times where I threw someone out my life and got sad after it, day after day I keep thinking about them as if I was in a drug or something.

   Sometimes as hard as people can be, and as rough as they be, People can redeem themselves if they really try. Take like the many characters in shows;Peridot of Steven Universe was able to be redeemed. I guess I'm purely explaining the fact that people can become great if they tried.

   Online I was harassed by a guy and his friend and it wouldn't stop for days, he went so far as to the moment i went out in stormy weather to calm myself. Earlier the month of December, he pms (private messaged) my friend on a sub account asking for forgiveness and mostly because he didn't want his friend to start it. I couldn't accept that apology, because he had all the time to apologize yet he chose now and I can't forgive him for that.

   Not all redemption equals acceptation

   Things happen and people get hurt, women get hurt. Women are most common to get hurt, reading a lot of feminist posting; there is a lot of rape case files amd deaths due to the man being angry at the woman or saying that it was all her fault. But even women have things to respect, not all men are terrible. Some can be so evil and some can be sweeter than the sweetest sugar. Its like foods, would you really complain if something spicy is spicy? How come it's not the same with a sweet one? No one seems to acknowledge the greatest guys we have. Men aren't all bad. Women aren't all bad.

No gender is better than the other.

   This gets me triggered, when someone says something along those things. Back in middle school they had a contest of boys vs girls and it was the dumbest thing ever. Like... No gender is better than the other, no race is better than the other.

   But what do you think?