Just a fan that lives in Kansas

Part 18

Y/Ns POV
*1 week later*
I was healing. But I was also still hurt. Tanner and me said our first I love yous. But we aren't dating but also think that I'm a fan too. Ok back to what I was doing! Tanner? I asked looking down. Yea? He said while playing fortnite. I-I think it's time to tell them. I said.
Are you sure? Tanner said. Y-yea I'm ready.. I said quietly. Tanner got up and went to go get his camera and his tripod. He set it up and this is where it starts. Hey guys I know I haven't recorded for a while. And that's because I'm really worried about somone. So half of you know who Y/N is aka the biggest fan. Well....
Y/N do you just want to explain so I don't cry.? He asked. I nod. I came into the view of the camera. Hi TannClann. As you know I'm Y/N
Anyways let's get telling why TB has not recorded for 4 weeks now. So it all started when he was doing a meet and greet. I couldn't go but not only that my mom didn't want me to drive 2hours away..so let's skip that. I tweeted saying I couldn't go but my friends could. And I tagged Tanner I really didn't want him to feel bad and put him down. Then next thing my phone is going off. I looked and see that he commented and saying to check my messages and I did. And I explained the whole story but at the end he said let me make it up to you. So the next day he drove 2 hours away in his challenger to come pick me up. I told him not to bring his Lambo because my mom knows that I watch TB. Anyways. He picked me up. But when I seen his car I started crying I didn't know what to do. Also I was numb but also he didn't know I was depressed and I was with anxiety. I relished that I had blood on my hoodie and I was scared I didn't move. Tanner got out of the car and helped me. Skip through the car ride because I slept. Anyways we went inside the house and everyone was there I was scared. Then I grabbed TBs hand quickly and squeezed it hard. I went to sit on the couch and told them my story and how TB has helped me. Then I asked Dylan where the bathroom is. So I went to the bathroom and I made sure I had a cutting razor with me. I cut. Not light but deep really deep. And that's when it started. I blacked out. The last thing I heard was Tanner yelling at Dylan to call momma Kim and yelling a Quentin telling him to Call cops. And that's when Tanner started trying to wake me up put it didn't work. I was at the hospital skip with the story anyways we came home. And then I heard Tanners voice and woke up. I told him I had to tell him something I told him I like him. And his face expression changed. And that's when I knew I fucked up and knew he wanted me to leave. So I went to the abandoned bridge and tried to look for something sharp. I found a rusty nail and cut. I then heard a car and I looked and it was Tanner. I ran as fast as I could and forgot about the blood on my arm. I felt like I was gonna pass out but I didn't I ran back home to his house. I ran to his bathroom and looked for something sharp. I found a razor and I broke it. I grab one of the razors and cut. I then I heard footsteps. I didn't care. Then I.....
To be continued......

A/N

Poor girl..poor Tanner.
This is sad.

Ok gb😭 - BraungardtDolansBich