A bunch of self written poems/ short stories

Jealousy

I smile and try to make you laugh as you think about the one who left you. I won't tell you that I feel just as hurt because of you. I won't mention that when you say that she was the only one you could have ever loved, it hurts me. I just don't get it. She was terrible, but you chose her above all else. I'm here for you, I've been here for you, but you choose other things over someone who's always here. It's just me being jealous though, I don't deserve someone like you. I'm not someone you'd ever want. You talk with me out of pity, and you laugh at my jokes because your uncomfortable. You all hate me, I know you do. I'm a silent whisper in a sea of booming voices. The grey and brown amongst the rainbows. I understand. I'm always choice number two, an afterthought to everyone else. A bother, a side note.