The Soundtrack of My Life

"...or did you destroy yourself?"

I was reading and came to this question

"did someone do something to you..... or did you destroy yourself?"

and we'll I thought about it...

maybe someone did something to me!

maybe, just maybe my ground cracked a little when my mother gave me away

maybe it cracked more when my father couldn't hang on... he had to die that night

maybe I was destroyed when my brother tried to rape me

maybe the ground fell down when a "friend" did rape me or

maybe I destroyed myself

all the nights I cried I never really tried to let go and pulled myself into depression

I never tried to get out of depression I always lied told everyone I was fine

but no one cared to try a bit harder

my worst time was when people surrounded me those were my loneliest times

or maybe it was 4am when I cried and couldn't sleep and the shadows along my walls haunted me or maybe the deepest part of my mind taunted me

as much as I want to blame everyone maybe I had something to do with the destruction of the girl I use to be!

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thanks for reading but I got the question from a book on here called "31 paper flowers" by @cheesyluke !!!!!!  you guys should go check it out!