𝐒𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐀 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧 ! ━━ 𝘈 𝘙𝘈𝘕𝘛𝘚, & 𝘌𝘛𝘊. 𝘉𝘖𝘖𝘒

Uh, yeah, no thanks

NOTE
This rant is practically pointless & I'm petty so there ya go ! Also this was written about a day/two days ago and it's too long lmao

So basically a continuation of what I ended with my last rant-y chapter. Now, just wanna say I'm a bitch and literally, I'm a wuss & I might exaggerate a tiny bit because there's only so much you can convey within words. In this, I'm gonna be loki exposing my mother & father because I'm annoyed as usual. They're not assholes but like I LITERALLY CANNOT SPEAK MY TRUE THOUGHTS OR FEELINGS TO THEM AT THIS POINT.

So, this begins at about 9 am. I'm on my phone, been up since 3:30 am & ya know, thought we were going to this really nice mall in Miami. Mom quietly comes in and expecting me to be asleep & tells me 'I scheduled an appointment with the dentist at 10:30.'

I said 'okay, I'll get in the shower & brush.' And on the inside, I said, "IM SORRY, WHAT? WAIT NO FUCK—". Like YOU TELL ME WE GOING TO THE DENTIST WITH SUCH A SHORT NOTICE AND IM FREAKING OUT MOM. My heart is beating really fast and feels like it could probably be an anxiety attack. I don't think I've had one, I mean I probably haven't don't get me wrong but I do get stressed and my heart just feels like it's actually hurts, okay.

Anyways, we get to the dentist but I forgot my headphones since we were rushing, but only bc she was making us late basically. So they tell us whats going on. Just that I need to get a cleaning, get some teeth extracted and get braces later on. Blah, blah, blah. So, my eyes were watery bc I hate the dentist. It fucking hurts.

And they say they could do a cleaning today so naturally, I say 'nope, I'm good.' I insist not to, like several times. My mom says it'll be more convenient to do it today. So, then, she convinces me to do it as my dentist is looking at me weird, expecting me to say something else. Then I INSIST TO DO IT TODAY AS IM TEARY EYED. But then my mom blatantly reminds me I shouldn't let others convince me into shit I don't wanna do, EVEN THOUGH I FUCKING KNOW THAT ALREADY, I insist it's fine. So then again, he convinces me to not to do it bc I obviously am teary eyed & don't want to do it even though I'm willing to get it over with it bc of you & so there's one less thing to do in the coming appointments. So again, I decide to not do it today.

Then later on, we're trying to reschedule for a cleaning bc I decided to not do it today. And they say next tuesday + the 26th. Mind you, they said it would be best to get it done soon otherwuse the inflammation would get worse. Inflammation meaning my gums would be sore as fuck. So naturally, I say tuesday but then my mom LITERALLY KEEPS DISAGREEING WITH ME FOR A SOLID MINUTE OR LESS. SHE DISSUADES ME FROM IT. Her reasoning was constantly that she's already paying 99 today for only a visit and going only a few days from today is stupid bc then it'd be 99 + the cleaning. And basically began to hammer me with why my choice is flawed.

They said it's best to do it soon and you said not to have people talk me into things, yet here you are, literally trying to push me into getting into the cleaning now while shaming my now changed choice & you can tell I AM NOT FOR ANY OF THIS SHIT. Like thanks mom for making me feel horrible and causing me to feel even worse with MY FUCKING HEART HURTING/BEATING SO MUCH AGAINST MY CHEST. It's not like it's her actual intention but fucking hell, you constantly do this probably every damn week before I can properly say something in defense or to refute what you're blatantly throwing in my face.

Even after we get out of dentist's office, she talks AGAIN about it for a solid few minutes before we head to Kohl's and Target. And mentionS it once or twice afterwards. Once we're home, I talk to my dad about the appointment itself and I fucking knew my mom would say something to my dad about what I said and almost did. So I tried to spare myself the actual repetition of what she would say by saying something to my dad like 'before mom says something, she surprised me with a sudden appointment & I've been up since 3 am.' And basically, I say some of my own pent up frustration for the last 2-3 hours by complaining barely when I usually have a bitch face or they think I'm pissed 24/7.

Literally, minutes later, my mom comes back into the room/office area & begins to repeat her point that I obviously argued with. IN ALL, SHE'S CONTRADICTING HERSELF & INTERRUPTING ME/SAYINH SOMETHING RIGHT AFTER JUST TO HAVE ME ARGUE WITH HER AGAIN.

And ya know what she says in the kitchen right after? That she can't tell me anything because now he's say something later. HOW ABOUT YOU TELL HIM TO STOP SAYIN SHIT THEN? SHE BE SAYING THIS FOR YEARS AND YA GOT ONE SIMPLE SOLUTION!

AND I GOT ONE MORE THING TO ADD BC IM A BITCH. Earlier, were in the store & I tell her about a debate in class for an assignment. Me & my friend Sabrina are doing the sides of whether or not Sexual Orientation determined at birth AKA if you can be born gay, bi, pan, ace, etc. I say I believe that people are. My brother was always gay and had transitioned to a woman, who is my sister but just sibling in general. And she agreed with me.

( I'm saying 'he' because my parents don't talk to her that much & sometimes refer to her as 'Dante' so yeah )

But...a few months ago....you said he was probably gay/was gay because of the shit he went through.....uh, what? She literally contradicted herself without addressing the previous statement. I never said anything about it at the time but like, mom, YOU ARE CONTRADICTING YOURSELF & LITERALLY THIS IS JUST NONSENSE.

She be doing this whenever we argue & I literally cannot talk to my parents in the way I actually talk or act. Or my family tbfh. Anyways, I'm tired and I suck at talking. That's all I got. That's all folks.