Dear, Luke // hemmings

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hello luke,

i know it's awkward that i'm talking to you thru my diary. even i know that you'll never read these. when i said i'm happy for you, i meant it. i feel like i'm the proudest person in the world when i stop by a channel that shows your band. i miss you all. you've all grown up alot.

i never really understood why you have to end these all up. i'm not even against your dream. i'm even encouraging you to keep it up. you said i'm your band's first ever number one fan right? and i still am.

my mother is now angry at me. she said i can't just let a simple 'puppy love' ruin my life. it isn't right? we both love each other. because sometimes, i came into conclusions that i'm the only one who's loving. now, everyone is angry at me.

sometimes, i think about giving up. but my mind wanders off to you. you are the reason that keeps me alive, luke. i hope you're happy with your life. because that smile. it's enough to make me happy.

til next time.

-meg