Animal I have become (Harry Styles)

Chapter eight

Primrose's POV

Have you ever been in the position where you forgive someone not because they deserve it, but because you can't imagine what your life would be like if you didn't just let that one mistake they made go? Imagine what your life would be without that someone that keeps fucking things up, but somehow you still defend him or her, keep making up excuses for what he or she did? I've come to realise that I've been in this position a very few times, but each time this happens I find it easier and easier to forgive, and that frustrates me. 

I shouldn't have let that slap go so fast. I should have slapped Nik back, I know he would have let me. I don't know why lately I've been like a puppy around him, why I keep ignoring the fact that he's being a total jackass. I care for him a lot, everyone knows that, hell, I've been loving this man since I was seven, but lately I seem to depend on him.

Nik's a really softie on the inside. He likes to joke around, and he likes to sing silly songs in the shower. He loves to paint, loves to stay on the roof at two in the morning watching the moon, loves tea and cupcakes. He loves to dance in the rain and loves to read, loves doing my make-up although he sucks at it. And he loves me. But like any man, he has his own demons that tend to show once in a while. He likes to have control over everything, to be in power, to be able to manipulate everyone he pleases. He hates traitors and he would shoot anyone that betrays him without missing a beat. He can fight two, even three men at the same time, and he can surely kill one with his bare hands. But the thing that defines him the most is his jealousy.

He's always been this way with strangers, but he never seemed to care when it came to the boys.

Ethan, Trevor, Alexander and Aiden, along with me were the persons he trusted the most, so it's easy to understand why I was quite shocked to see him get jealous over Aiden. Okay, I admit, I crossed the line, but I was intoxicated and so was Aiden but it's not like I was going to kiss him. Hell, Aiden is more of a brother to me that Alexander is. Don't get me wrong, I love my brother, but Aiden is more likely to stay by my side than he is. What shocked me wasn't the fact that he was jealous, considering he was also drunk and wasn't thinking properly, but the fact that he dared to slap me. I was more disappointed than I was sad or angry.

Anyway, his words touched me, but what made me forgive him in that very moment was the look in his eyes, the fact that he was more disappointed of himself than I was, the fact that he was scared to lose me. Maybe I was an idiot for forgiving him but maybe I loved him too much to just let go yet.

(Ahh, I'm so sorry for taking so long you don't understand how sorry I am. This chapter is also really really short but I wanted to post it already and stop being a dick and making you guys wait. I've been really busy lately and I still am but I promise I will update at least once every week from now on. The next chapters will be way more interesting than this one, I swear. Anyway, hope you enjoyed it, love you xx)