tw: abuse
did you know i still retreat back into myself when someone raises their hand at me?
did you know i still flinch when someone raises their voice?
did you know that you hurt me beyond repair? did you know that i was struggling and you thought you could fix that with your fist?
did you know you covered me in bruises that i let nobody see?
did you know that when i told my mom what you'd done years later her response was "oh, i thought you'd be stronger"
did you know that i'd cry and cry and cry from your actions?
did you know that other people saw you hurt me but didn't care?
did you know i still fear you?
did you know that your words still impact me?
did you know i can still feel that same pain?
did you know that i wanted to believe you when you said you'd stop?
did you know it hurt so much more when you didn't?
did you know i started smoking to cope with what you'd done?
did you know i was barely a teenager then and i'm going into adulthood with those scars?
did you know i never left because i was scared?
did you know i didn't love you but you swore you loved me?
did you know that everything you've done to me still haunts me?
did you know that i stand here today nearly 18 years old still feeling the pain you inflicted on me when i was only 13?
i don't think you know.
-GAR
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Losowethrough the years i've been through a lot. i've pent a lot of my feelings up inside and i think i'm ready to let them out. given that this is a lot about what i've been through there will be a lot of triggering material i will try to tag that if you...
