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It had passed 10 minutes at least when I heard Hyunjin calling me.

"Are you there?"

I waited for him to go. But, despite of my silence, he opened the door and our eyes met again. I could appreciate every damn tone of his irises. Beautiful.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have held your hand without asking. I... I just missed it. I miss your soft skin..." I turned all red, from nose to ears, and looked away. It was impossible holding his stare. "I miss messing your hair and playing with it, I miss even more when you did it with mine". He got a step closer. "I miss your voice, even when it was so loud, because I had an excuse to kiss you". He standed infront of me. Go, please, go. "Fuck, I miss your lips, I miss caressing them with mines. You can't imagine how difficult it is to hold back myself right now." He crouched down and put his hands on each side of my knees. I held back my breath.

"Of course I know, dummy" I whispered. I turned my face slowly to see his expression. He was breathing really fast while biting his tongue. He looked hungry, and I don't mean that he wanted to eat a bbq pizza with extra cheese. It was the kind of hungry stare he always had when we fought and I wouldn't let him kiss me or when he wanted to, but his pride didn't let him. And it made me want to close my eyes and let him go on, as I used to do. Instead, I said something stupid, because it couldn't be in other way. "Don't get closer, it still hurts." Yeah, he had been approximating, until I said that. He stopped and closed his eyes strongly. He didn't move, I could feel his deep breath.

"Okay, I won't get closer if you don't want, but I won't let you go, no again" his eyelids opened let me see his breathtaking colours. "I want to explain myself, please." I nodded slowly, what else could I do? He lifted up his lips, without showing his teeth, but it was enough to make me feel as if thousand thumbtacks were beeing pinned in my stomach.

"First of all, I didn't mean anything that I told you. I said that you were disgusting, ugly, and pathetic. And I didn't mean anything of this" my eyes flooded with tears, but I didn't let them fall down. "You're awesome, handsome and more talented than most of the people on Earth. I said that I hadn't loved you and that I didn't love you, but the truth is that I fell for you at the very first second you held my hand thinking I was your friend and then you blushed and apologized to me. How did you expect me not to fall for that? You took my whole heart and made it all yours."

Without knowing, tears started falling down. "Then, why did you say so?"

"I told you my parents are rich, right? They found out about our relationship and told me to cut it off or they would fire your parents since they had the power to do so."

"You could have explained that before, bastard" he put his hands around my face and wiped the tears with his thumbs. "I would have understand."

"That's why I couldn't tell you about this, I needed you to hate me, so you wouldn't come back to me before I got rid of them. I worked hard to get a good job and pay for a small appartment by my own and live alone. And now, they don't have any rights over me. Although I had to give up my inheritance, I was happy, because soon or later I would have been able to be with you again." I surrounded his hands.

And did another stupid things, it became normal to me. "Still, you hurted me and didn't show any emotion, how can I trust you again?" And removed his hands before standing up and wiped the left tears by myself. He looked speechless. I guess he tought he had me again. Well, some news, I'm not putting it easy this time. I want him to try harder, so I can trust him again.

"Work harder, I'm not falling quick this time."

The truth was that I had already fallen two years ago.

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HOW IS IT GOING BABYS??? I've done my exam finally, finished this chapter and started replying to everyone who has talked to me this week, because I couldn't before ㅠㅠ

Anyways, I wish you're doing great and remember to take care of yourselves ♡ (actually I should do so, I've been sleeping for just 4-5 hours per day and didn't took any nap lel).

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