One mistake, Darling 〈stray kids〉Hyunsung» Hyunjin x Jisung

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There I was again, at the nurse's office, my forearms covering my eyes in a useless attempt of not crying, it was wet. I didn't know if I had started when I saw them kissing or when I closed the door, but I felt pathetic, I had trusted him and got nothing bit deception.

The door opened and I held back my breath, but a whimper came out without permission, I wished the person hadn't heard it. It was probably what happened since the door closed again and no steps were heard. That lonely feeling took over me again, as when Hyunjin attempted to left me there when we met, but I had had him that time at least. I was alone then.

I failed at sleeping and just closed my eyes, but it didn't contain my tears. Why did I have to suffer that much? Would I ever have a reward?

Apparently the World didn't want me to rest peacefully, that time the door was opened and closed, but someone approached to my space. I wished... I wished it was Hyunjin and at the same time I wished he wouldn't come.

The curtain was slid, I didn't see who it was, anyway I recognized his voice when he started to tear up my heart with his words.

“I'm sorry, Jisung... You know I'm horrible at speaking and giving speeches... And I made you cry again”, he gulped and came one step closer. “I'm asking for your forgiveness when I can't forgive myself. I swear I never attempt to hurt you, and I swear I only love you and that I didn't kiss Seungmin, he did it because... I'm probably not in the position of talking about it, but it wasn't me.

“Stop, I don't want to hear you.” I rolled over my body and gave him my back so he couldn't see new tears coming down my face.

Some minutes passed, in which the silence reigned. I wasn't going to break it, but it was too uncomfortable and heavy that I couldn't stand it.

“If you aren't going to say anything else, just leave.”

“I'm not saying anything because you told me to shut up. I won't ever again go against your will.”

“Then, would you leave me alone if I told you so?”

“I wouldn't be able, you hate being alone.”

I pressed my eyes stronger and convinced myself that his words didn't have any effect on me. Yes, I was lying to myself.

“Then leave me alone when the bell rings. Stay with me now, but never talk to me again.”

He didn't answer, so I supposed it was an affirmation. Maybe, and just maybe, I was waiting for him to told me he wasn't going to stop talking to me and was going to fix past mistakes.

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Idk why, but this chapter reminds me of Time Out by GOT7 xd

As promised, here is the double update❤️

WHY CAN'T I WRITE GOOD THINGS SERIOUSLY I think everything is going emo because I'm stressed about school, so perhaps good things come up in two weeks, when school year ends ><