I.D.G.A.F

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(A/N: There will be some bad language throughout the whole story. :P And please excuse my bad punctuation. xD The picture is what you look like. Another thing, Jayy is straight in the story. ^-^)

**Your P.O.V**

I woke up to 'candyland' playing from my alarm. I sat up and turned my alarm off and then picked up my phone and looked at the time. It was 6:00am. I got out of bed yawning and walked over to the wardrobe which was covered in posters of botdf. I opened the wardrobe and picked out a black cami and white ripped skinny jeans. I threw them onto my bed and then went into the bathroom, locked the door and turned on the shower. Once the shower had warmed up, I got in and washed my hair and my body. I unlocked the door and went back into my bedroom and got dressed into the clothes I had picked out earlier. I went over to the bedside table and grabbed my iPod and turned on botdf and listened to it while I done my makeup and brushed my hair. I turned off my music and then put everything I needed  for school into my Pierce The Veil bag. I picked up my bag and my black leather jacket which was on the bag off my desk chair and then went downstairs for breakfast.

I went into a kitchen and both my little sister Ellie and my dad were in the kitchen. I put my bag under the kitchen table and my jacket on the back of my seat and went over to the cupboards and got a bowl and a box of cereal. I poured the cereal in the bowl and then got some milk from the fridge and poured that too. I picked up a spoon from the drawers and went to sit down at the kitchen table and eat my breakfast, "Morning sis" Ellie said cheerfully, "Morning Els" I replied, not looking up from my bowl and continuing to eat. I could feel my dad staring at me. He hated me but adored Ellie, I don't understand why. It was awkward silence after that until my dad spoke up "Sophia, I have been told by your teachers that you are failing your classes..". I put my spoon down so it'd make a loud clinking noise against the bowl and stared down "Why do you care?" I replied barely audible. Unfortunately, he heard "Don't backchat me young lady! You should be as smart as your sister!" he shouted, "Dad...stop" I heard Ellie say. That didn't stop him, he carried on moaning about my future. He never cared before so why should he care now? But then he said something about mum "It's your fault your mother died.." he told me. I can't believe he said that to me. His own daughter! I could feel tears pricking at my eyes, threatening to spill over "FUCK YOU DAD!" I snapped. I grabbed my jacket and put it on and grabbed my bag and went over to the front door and put my shoes on. I could hear my dads heavy footsteps following me and I knew instantly what was in for me.

I was just about to leave the house when I felt a pair of hands grab me by my neck and pull me back. My dad threw me to the floor and got on top of me "DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT TO ME AGAIN!" he yelled, spitting in my face. He slapped me full force on my face leaving a red mark on me cheek that stung. Tears were coming down my face, he was never like this before mum died, why is he like this now? Ellie was the favorite here, he never hurt her yet he always abused me. I don't need him and I don't need her. I don't need either of them. My dad had finally got off me and gone back into the kitchen and left me here laying on the floor in pain covered in bruises and cuts. I stood up and went upstairs and went back into the bathroom and locked the door. I lifted the sleeves on my jacket revealing my already cut and scarred wrist. I found my dads razor blades and grabbed one. I started cutting my wrist and each cut started to bleed. Neither of them care about me so I won't care about them. No one cares about me. Who would care for a sad, lonely freak like me? I want to die. I stopped cutting and washed the blood of my wrist and the razor. I placed the razor blade back so it would look like I hadn't touched it. No one knew I cut and I won't tell them. I looked in the mirror above the sink and wiped the tears away from my eyes and re-did my eye make up. I pulled down my sleeve to cover up my arm and then unlocked the bathroom door and stood in the hallway. I grabbed my iPod out of my bag put my headphones on and turned on incomplete and all alone. It seemed the most appropriate right now. I looked at the time on my iPod. It was now 7:45am and I was going to be late for school. I didn't care. I get bullied all the time there. I sneaked down the stairs and to the front door and left the house to walk to school.

 It was 8:10am by the time I arrived to school and got to my class. I turned off my music and took out my headphones and put my iPod into my bag. I opened the door to go into the classroom, the teacher had already started the lesson. My teacher Mr. Lawson noticed me "Why are you late this time Sophia?" I was always late for school lately so I'm pretty sure I've used every excuse in the book  "I-I overslept" I told him shyly and looked down at the ground "Go sit down. Don't want to waste any more lesson time, exams will be soon" Mr. Lawson was a dick, I hated him. As I walked over to my desk I heard the slutty girls snickering. I sat down at my desk which was luckily next to my closest friend Amber.  Amber was the one and only person I trusted and we told each other everything. She had bright green eyes and firery red straightened hair with black stripes going down her bangs "Hey guuurl!" she whispered over to me making sure Mr. Lawson couldn't see us talking "Guuurl heyyy!" I whispered back. That was when I saw one of the slutty girls hand go up and Mr. Lawson responded to them "Sir, Amber and Sophia are being distracting and talking in the lesson. You should do something." the girl with the bright blonde curly hair told him sweetly with a fake smile spread across her stupid face. I hated her. Mr. Lawson looked over at us and frowned "Girls, I suggest you pay attention in this lesson. That is unless you want to fail your exams" he told us sternly "I don't care sir. I'm not even interested in doing anything that has anything to do with this lesson" Amber replied sticking her tongue out at him. The people in front of us and looked at her and the slutty girls looked stunned that she was backchatting him "That's it Amber. If you don't want to participate in class, then I don't want you in MY class" he shouted at her. The slutty girls were snickering again but everyone else looked stunned....apart from Amber. She just stood up and smiled sweetly at him "Fine. Bye sir" she said flicking him off laughing. She then looked at me and winked and then walked out and slammed the door shut behind her. I overheard the brunette haired girl from the slutty group saying something about Amber "Amber thinks she's hard and cool but she's not. She's just a wannabe slut" the other girls just giggled. Look who's talking. I ignored them and looked down at my exercise book and doodled mini chibis of Jayy and Dahvie.

It was finally lunch time and me and Amber were sat in the hallway laughing about her argument with Mr. Lawson. That was when I remembered what the brunette haired girl had said about her after she left. We told each other everything, I couldn't keep it from her so I told her. Once I told her, she looked at me with her mouth open and wide eyed "She said WHAT?! She's the slut here! Everyone knows it!" I couldn't help but laugh at her reaction, she was funny when she was angry but she was right. That was when we saw them. The sluts. Amber spotted them too and stood up and walked over to them. I walked over with her and they spotted us "I know what you said about me after I left. If anyone's the slut, it's you!" Amber told them. Obviously the leader of the group was the blonde one. She was caked in make up and fake tan. She looks like Barbie "Excuse me?" 'Barbie' asked looking stunned "You heard exactly what I said Barbie" Apparently Amber thought the same thing as I did "Go away you slutty, emo freak" 'Barbie' scoffed and put her hand up in Amber's face. Amber was getting angry and I didn't blame her. I looked away for a second and looked back around in time to see Amber slap the blonde girl in the face. The girls group looked shocked as did she. Amber looked smug and flicked her off and I laughed. That was when it all kicked off. Fists were flying everywhere. Amber had the girl on the ground, punching her in the face, pulling her hair and slapping, the girl trying to fight back but failing. A teacher came past and saw everything "BREAK IT UP!" he shouted at both of them. Amber got off of 'Barbie' and ended up being taken to the principals office and 'Barbie' glared at me.

One of 'Barbie's' friends came over to me "You and your friend better stay away from us and Ashley or else we'll do something to you and her that we won't regret. Now go kill yourself. No one cares or loves you scene freak." she snarled. I'm guessing Ashley is the girl Amber beat up. I glared at her, tears threatening to spill down my cheeks. At that moment, I didn't think for a second. I lost it. I grabbed her hair as she turned away to head back over to her friends and slapped her the hardest I could. She tried to grab my throat but failed. I punched her in the nose and heard a stomach turning crack. Did I just break her nose? I didn't care, I was angry. I punched her in the eye giving her a black eye. I let go of her, her nose was bleeding and she tried to stop it. I just stared at her breathlessly. Only then had I realized what I done and I started to regret it. Another teacher walked past and asked what happened. Of course Ashley's friend told the whole story, missing out the part where she told me to kill myself. I got taken to the principals office. I looked back at the girls and they were all snickering. Bitches. I want out of this stupid school anyway.

(A/N: Hope you're enjoying the story so far. ^-^)

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