Freaks do it better! (A BOTDF fanfiction)

You are the heart

**Sophia's P.O.V**

So here I am, sat on the swing in the park. I pretty much just dropped out of school. Another thing that people can judge me on. Oh she's a school drop out, she must be stupid. Not if people don't think that I'm stupid already...I am stupid, I agree with them. I got my phone out of my bag and found Amber's contact and decided to text her "Heyy, what happened at school? Hope everythings okay. I thought I'd tell you I dropped out. x". I put my phone back in my back and thought to myself for a bit.

**FLASHBACK**

I was 8 years old and Ellie was 7. We were both in my room sat on my bed listening to my parents fight. We could hear every word but they didn't know. Our parents fought a lot "Do you think they'll go back to how they were before?" Ellie asked me crying into my shoulder. I really didn't know how to answer her, there was no hope of that "I don't want to lie, I don't think so." I got up and put my iPod on a portable speaker and turned on Feel by Sleeping With Sirens and turned the volume up loud to block out the argument. We heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Me and Ellie held onto each other, terrified. Our mum came my room and hugged us both "I want you both to know that none of this is any of your fault and that I love you both very much." She hugged us both and kissed us gently on the cheeks. Tears were rolling down her face and she looked terrified. She turned around and walked out of my room and shut the door behind her. Me and Ellie both looked at each other, none of us knew what to say, but we were scared. That was when we heard a scream....

Both me and Ellie got up and quietly went down the stairs. We saw dad stood in the living room with something silver and shiny which looked sharp. I knew instantly that it was a knife but there was something on it. We looked at what he was stood next to. There, on the floor, was a figure that was laying still on the floor. There was a red liquid over the floor where the figure was laying. I then realized who that figure was....it was mum.

Dad saw me and Ellie looking. He dropped the knife and came chasing after us up the stairs. Ellie managed to get away but he managed to grab me. He got hold of me by my neck and held my hands together so I couldn't try and defend myself. He threw me down the stairs and I went tumbling down "DAD STOP, YOU'RE HURTING HER" I hear Ellie scream. She cared. I just lay at the bottom of the stairs crying and in pain. I could see dad coming down the stairs towards me. I sat up and crawled to the kitchen. I stood up and grabbed a knife and hid under the kitchen table "SOPHIA! GET HERE! NOW!" he was shouting for me, looking for me. When I was sure he couldn't see me, I snuck back upstairs and into the bathroom. I locked the door, making sure he couldn't get me. I slid my back against the door and sat on the floor against it with my knees up, crying. I looked at the knife I had grabbed to defend myself and got a strange feeling.

That was the moment I cut for the very first time. I felt relieved. Each cut just relieved me more and more. My cuts started to bleed and the blood was dripping onto the floor. I stood up and walked over to the sink and washed the blood of my arms and the knife. I hid the knife somewhere where dad wouldn't find it and then looked up at my tear stained face in the mirror. Help me.....

**END OF FLASHBACK**

It was dad's fault yet he blames me. I felt tears rolling down my face, I didn't even realize I was crying. I got distracted out of my thought from a familiar voice "Sophia! There you are! I've been looking for you!" It was amber. She was coming over towards me. I wiped my tears away and looked up at her and fake smiled "Hiya!" It was no good. She knew something was up "Hey, what's wrong? And don't say nothing because I'll know you're lying. Is it your dad again?" I had told her about all the times about my dad abused me since my mothers death. I trusted her. She was my best friend "He's part of it. But I just feel....unwanted. No one cares for me, I don't even care for myself. I just want to die." I explained. She hugged me tightly "I care for you! You're my best friend! I will never let anything happen to you!" She was such a good friend. I looked up at her and smiled weakly, tears rolling down my face "Thanks, I'm glad we're friends." and that's the truth.

**Time skip**

I was sat at my desk looking on Twitter with suicide club playing on my iPod. I had so many hate messages. I don't even know most of these people yet they hate me. I heard my bedroom door open and looked around to see my dad stood there. He looked furious. Here we go again "Are you fucking stupid?! Why the hell did you drop out of school you stupid bitch?!" He yelled. I wanted to tell him all my problems, the girls picking on me, the fight at school, the cutting....everything. But he wouldn't care. I just glared at him "Well?! Answer me!" I was getting sick of him. He always hurt me and for what? I hadn't even done anything "Because I'm sick and tired of everyone treating me like shit! Especially you! My own father! I hate you! It's YOUR fault mums dead, not mine! You killed her!" I snapped, I didn't even regret saying that I hated him "I'm ashamed of you! You're no daughter of mine! I hope you drop dead, go kill yourself!" he turned and left the room and stormed downstairs. Ellie was stood at the door. She had hear the whole thing. Tears were rolling down her face "He doesn't mean it..." she said softly, I didn't believe her "Yes he does....he hates me! Just....leave me alone! You're the favorite in this house..." I yelled. I don't know why I yelled at her. It wasn't her fault. I was just angry. She left the room and closed the door and I sat quietly crying. I'm done with life. 

I picked up my phone and texted Amber "I'm sorry. I'll miss you lots, you were my best friend. Goodbye. x". I pressed send and put the phone on my bed. I quickly found a piece of paper and a pen and wrote a note to Ellie. I left it on my bed next to my phone and then went into the bathroom and closed the door. I opened the medicine cabinets and took out all the bottles of pills and then picked up a razor blade and put next to the pills. I picked up the bottle of pills and opened it. But before I could tip them all into my mouth, one of my all time favorite botdf songs started playing. You are the heart. I put the bottle down and listened to the lyrics. After the song had finished, I didn't want to die. I felt happy for the first time in years. I put the lid back on the bottle and done it up and put the pills back in the medicine. I then picked up the razor blade and looked at it in my hand for a few moments before putting it back where it was.

I went back into my room and ripped up the note I had written for Ellie and threw it into the bin next to my desk. I looked at my phone and had 1 new message from Amber. I opened it and read it "Soph, please don't do this! You're the only person I've been this close to and you're my best friend. I won't cope if I lose you. We can get through this together. Please Soph....it's all inside, you can't change the world so don't you dare give up on me tonight x". She texted me some lyrics from the very song that saved me. I'm glad I didn't die and I can thank botdf for that. I texted Amber back so she wouldn't worry "Amber, it's okay. I decided not to. Besides, I couldn't leave you....you're my best friend. Also, you are the heart, that was the song I was listening to. Botdf saved me, I have to thank them some day x". I put my phone down next to my laptop and walked over to my wardrobe and got out my pjamas. I got changed into them and turned my music off and then climbed into bed. I stared up at the ceiling lost in thought. Thank you botdf. You saved me. Then I fell asleep.

**Amber's P.O.V**

I got a text from Soph saying that she was going to kill herself. She was my best friend. I couldn't just watch her suffer and lose her. I texted her back, persuading her not to do it. I was worried that I was going to lose her, I wouldn't let that happen. She eventually texted back. I was relieved to see her name on my phone saying she had sent a message. I wasn't going to lose my friend! She said about a song that her favourite band botdf had done. She also wanted to thank them which gave me such an awesome idea. It's her 18th birthday in a few days and I saw that botdf would be peforming in Birmingham the same day. I logged onto my laptop and went on the ticket site. I found the right tickets and decided to get her a and myself a VIP pass so we could go backstage. When I made sure it was all right, I clicked to order them. I think she'll love my present. I deserve a best friend of the year award..

(A/N: Sorry I'm dragging it out but I wanted to make the story longer to read. :3)