TMNT fanfic

Chapter 14; hashi and panickry

I balance on one hand in a handstand position, my legs spread and my hand holding up 15 lbs to counter my weight. I take a breath before I bring my legs together then then bring them to my right, my left arm going the opposite way until I reach my limit. I freeze there, close my eyes and count to three before I go a little bit further. Shaking slightly, I push air in and out, my eyes still shut. I jump when I feel hands correcting my posture, almost losing my focus. I wobble, and the hands stabilize me before I get it together and take in the corrections. Sensei comes into sight and smile at me, earning a tight lipped smile back. Then he sets weights on my feet, making me grunt but hold still.
Mikey is across from me, in a split formation and balancing bricks on his thighs and eggs on his arms and head while his arms and hands are spread. I take a breath and shut my eyes.
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"Hey Mikey?"
"What Dan?"
"Who ratted us out?" I hear his struggle to not laugh.
"No one did. I was loud and sensei watched your reaction."
I huff and purse my lips, my muscles screaming from holding this position for so long.
"Maybe you shouldn't have woken me like that."
Silence, and then.
"Maybe you shouldn't have responded like that." I glare at him.
"I normally wouldn't have, but Donnie needed someone to talk to in the dead of night and I was his choice. We talked for hours until he was better and then he left. So I didn't get adequate sleep last night." He swallows but can't move his head. I shut my eyes and correct my form when I notice I'm slacking.
"13 hours in the hashi, and you two are looking shaky. Are you sure you don't want to share?" Sensei walks in, tail up and hands behind his back. I purse my lips, and his tail lashes out, smacking my abs. I inhale sharply and struggle to correct my now shaken form. I clench my teeth together, then feel the lash of his tail against my thigh. I let out a cry of pain, then inhale sharply.
"I'm. Not. Breaking." I kept my eyes shut. When there's silence I open my eyes to find senseis narrowed eyes on me. I swallow before I look to Mikey who's not shaking as bad as me. Sensei gets up close and studies me as my jaw starts to ache as bad as my muscles.
There's a moment of silence, and only one thought comes to mind.
'Oh god.' I glance to Mikey, and shake my head.
'Don't you break Michelangelo.'
Sensei circles me, ideas forming as I purse my lips. 'Mercy?'
His tail comes out and spins the chair I'm on, and I shriek as the weights draw out because of this shift. I strain to keep them still. I try to ignore the panic rising in my throat as my surroundings blur.
"Alright alright!" Mikey calls out, and splinter stops the spinning. I tremble and keep my eyes shut, trying to focus on some calming breathing exercises.
"I woke Dan up using pans and she counted down from 5 to give me a head start before she chased me and beat me with a pan!" Mikey spills. I look to sensei, the breath I need is not coming. He gestures for us to get down, taking the bricks and eggs from Mikey and then the weights from me. I collapse onto the chair and hide my face when I cry out from the contact. I shakily and hurriedly leave the room and rush to the biggest room, then lay on my back and hide my face, trying to not let the panic build.
I force myself to spread eagle on the ground and take deep, slow breaths. I inhale, count to 3, then exhale counting to 2, and then hold for 5. I continue, changing the count until it works.
"Dan?" A hesitant voice comes out. But I shake my head, almost done calming down.
"Donnie? What's wrong with her?" A moment of silence.
"She's having a panic attack Mikey." I fist my hands and focus on my breathing.
"Danielle." Leo settles beside me, but I shake my head.
"D-Don't..let me have space.." He doesn't move for a bit then backs away. I relax a little bit more, and focus on my breathing.
"Ground yourself." Splinter softly orders.