i could tell he didn't like me that much. he is so cute and i was so nervous, i wish i could just tell him that. throughout the week i tried talking to him more, trying to take a more... friendly approach to things. Peter Hermann isn't just "cute", he's so kind, intelligent, interesting, funny, and joyful. plus he got my name right! i love talking to him, learning more about him. he is very mysterious and charming, yet outgoing and nerdy.
i asked him where he got his shirt but i guess he heard me wrong. Peter looked at me confused, "did you just ask me where i go to church?" he asked. i thought about it for a minute. should i correct him? or should i... no wait, i got this.
i leaned over to him saying, "actually funny that you mentioned that. i just moved here and have been trying to look for a nice, friendly church to attend." he liked that. a beautiful smile came across his face, then asked me, "well... would you like to come to church with me on sunday? if you're free?"
that's when an even bigger smile came upon my face. i could feel myself blushing, i sure hope it wasn't showing or at least he wouldn't notice. i looked down to try and hide it. maybe it would go away if i didn't look at him, so i gazed down at my lap, playng with my fingers nervously.
my cheeks weren't a burning stovetop anymore. i looked up at him and smiled, not too big because i didn't want to blush again. i think i may have scared him. i may have took too long of a pause in between his question and my answer. now he either thinks,
A. i'm going to reject him
or
B. i'm a freaking insane freak.
either way, i scared him a little, or maybe i was over reacting. probably, i tend to do that a lot. oh my god mariska, you think too long and you are freaking him out more. just say something, anything. try not to say a racist remark offending his whole background again...
i realized my smile had gone, since i was troubling myself in my head. i smiled at him once again. opening my mouth after all this time, i took a breath and softly whispered, "i'd love to peter."
finally. finally i got him to ask me on a date...
i think.
