Urie's lil Sinner (Brendon Urie)

38: I'm not ready.

It was the morning and fuck I was sore.
As I laid on my side I curled up in a ball as I felt very sick, I tried to block it out but the feeling wouldn't leave my body.
I normally end up feeling better if I just sit up, so I did. As I sat up I held onto my mouth and ran to the bathroom.
As I leant down to the toilet I threw up, sick feeled the toilet bowl.
As I wiped my mouth I flushed the toilet and drank some water from the sink.

As I walked back into Brendons room I saw that he wasn't in there, good thing too because I wouldn't have wanted him to hear or see me being sick.
I then noticed a note on my side of the bed, it was laying flat on the bedside table.

As I sat down holding my head, I picked up the note and read it in my head.

Amy...
Last night was fun, I had to go to a meeting and I didn't want to wake you up.
Seeing as you threw up in the middle of the night I decided to give you a little break, I hope you feel better today.
Brendon xxx

I smiled and then read it over again, I threw up last night as well? Why don't I remember? I must've been half asleep.
Am I ill? I need help...

I quickly picked up my phone and messaged Lara, asking her if she can talk, but she soon called me so I answered. "Hey Lara... I think I need your help." I explained.
"What's wrong? Is it Brendon?" She questioned as I chuckled a little.
"Kinda... I think I'm pregnant, but I don't know for sure. I was sick last night and this morning. Could you come round?" I explained as I stood up and looked through some of Brendons comfy hoodies and pulled one out.

"Of course I can, I'll leave soon." She said as we said our goodbyes and we hung up. I then quickly walked out of Brendons room and down to mine, which is was most likely gunna be the babies room if I end up keeping it...
What am I thinking, Brendon doesn't want kids and I'm not ready, I still might not be pregnant.

As I quickly put in some leggings and one of Brendons hoodies that I took from his room moments ago.
The door soon opened and Lara walked into the house so I walked out into the hall way and hugged her.
She was holding onto a plastic bag.
"How are you?" She asked as we let go of each other.
"I'm a lil scared... what's in the bag?" I asked as she pulled out a small blue box and a tub of chocolate chip ice cream. (my favorite)
"I thought you could see for sure and I also thought you could do with some ice cream." She said as I smiled a little and she past me the box of pregnancy tests.

I then followed her into the kitchen and she placed the ice cream in the freezer to keep it cool.
"Ok... let's do it in Brendons room." I said as she followed me up the stairs into Brendons room and into his bathroom.
"You still haven't moved yourself into his room yet?" She asked as I shook my head.
"I might have to if it turns positive." I said as I shut the bathroom door and almost imedietly started to pee on this tiny little stick.

I ended up doing a few just in case.
As I stood there waiting I let Lara in and we soon saw all three pregnancy tests showing positive.
"Oh fuck." Is all Lara said as I placed my face in my hands and walked out slowly and sat on Brendons bed.
"What am I gunna do?" I asked as she sat next to me and rubbed my back.
"Well, you're gunna have to tell him..." she said as I placed my hands down on my thighs and looked at her.
"I can't tell him... he hates kids... or he didn't want one. Either way I can't tell him." I said while standing up.

"Then what are you gunna do?" She asked as I bit my lip.
"I'll wait a few weeks until I'm at least showing a little and then tell him. But not now." I explained while running back into the bathroom to clean up the pregnancy tests.
I made sure to keep one so I can tell him later on.

"Come on... let's take our mind off of this." I said as we walked out and downstairs into the living room.
Before she could sit down I stopped her and said "WAIT! Don't sit there... that's where is happened..." I explained as she moved herself to the side and I sat on the seat where IT happened.