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?The Mystery pt.4?

As I got back home it was time for bed

I laid there

It was just the silence and me

I remembered my happy times

But soon to be conquered by my deep thoughts

The thoughts that brought it all to an end

I left 7 notes

For seven guys

I wished them the best

And to never ever worry about me

I knew this was the end

But I wasn't afraid

I was ready

Ready to leave this hell

I breathed in and out

Crying because I knew this was it

My last day

My last life

I wish I could stay

But this pain is to much

I just wanna go

I just wanna fly

Far far far away

It was now or never

I'm sorry Bang Tang I'm sorry ARMY

But my time has come

I felt my eyes get heavier and heavier

And I know soon they would close

And I would never wake up to this hell again

It was now or never

I wanted to fly

I wanted to be free

I wanted to see my family

My dad

My Mum

My Brother

And my sister Chaeyoung

My whole family was up there

But I wasn't

It didn't make sense

As my eyes started to close

I knew it was time

I petted sparky and Bailey one last time

And whispered

"I love you and goodbye"

Not for a little bit

But forever

'I wish you the best of luck Bangtang For I was just an anchor for you all

I wish you all luck peace and health but for me I was not healthy mentally or physically 

I will miss you all

I put out separate note out for you all

I love you all so so so much

But this is goodbye

Forever and always you Lani'

As I remember those words my life flashed through my eyes showing me the happy times

I no longer wanted to leave

But I didn't have a chance

I had taken my own life on January 2, 2019

I was so dum

But I felt my eyes close

And my last breath

I used all my strength

To hold on to the letters and open my eyes

But that had-dent  worked

I was forever gone

"....Goodbye..."