Hidden Addiction

Chapter 11

I sit there, looking at him from my desk only about 12 feet away from his. He looked no different. Like he didn't get super sick just last night. How would I even ask him about it? It's not like I could come to him and be like 'Oh hey by the way I found these pills in your jacket when you were really sick. I just wanna make sure your using them properly.'

I sigh to myself with my chin in my hand and my elbow on the desk. He looks up at me from a paper he had been writing on for about 10 minutes.

"You okay?" He asks, concern playing slightly.

I nod, "I'm fine." I say coldly. Maybe he would ask what was wrong then I'd tell him.
"Okay.. Well I have a meeting now so, I'll see you later." He shoots back with an even colder tone.

I stand up and meet him at the door, "Ryder, we need to talk when your done." I open the door for him.

"Okay. We will." He kisses my cheek before heading out.

I'm left in the office alone, not sure how to tell him that I found the pills last night. I could always text him.. Yeah, I'm gonna do that. Then I wouldn't have to worry about a huge fight between the two of us.

I pull out my phone and into my texts, 'Ryder, what are these pills for?' I snap a picture and hit send.

He never replies to my text but sends a messenger to me while he is still in the meeting he left about 2 hours ago for.
I hear a knock on the office door, "Come in." I shout as I am piling all the paper work I had done onto Ryder's desk neatly.

"Mr. Blu would like for you to go home early. He said you both will talk as soon as he is done with his meeting." She smiles and shuts the door as she leaves.

I sit there thinking to myself, 'so he didn't wanna talk about this here? He wants to take it back to his house? Well he did tell me to go Home. And his house is not my home yet. So I will do as he asks and go home.'

I grab my bag and some work to do at home and walk out of the office. Passing Ryder's meeting room with a huge window in it, he watches as I leave. Angry with him and the fact he won't talk about this with me.

I decide to walk all the way home, it would give me time to think.
"Ms. King?" I hear Hallin call out as I walk past him as he waits by the car. 
I ignore him and anyone else that dare speaks to me as I walk home from the bad day I just had.
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It only took me 3 hours to walk home but I did make it. I didn't take any breaks or stop at any stores. I walked the whole way, thinking about the shitty day that had been. All I could look forward to now was my own damn bed that was waiting just ahead. It has been raining for about an hour and I was shivering wet. So a nice got bath and my warm bed were the only things keeping me going.

As I turn the corner of the block only 3 buildings down from my apartment I stop and hide behind a tree. Ryder's car was sitting just outside.  

I sigh to myself, "Okay Casey, you can either run away and hide until he is gone. Or go in there like a badass and pretend he isn't there."

Should I really allow this man to control me everywhere? I mean at this very moment he was keeping me from even going home.
No. I wasn't going to stay out here in the cold just to avoid him. If I was going to avoid him, then I was going to do it in a damn hot bath.

I through open the door to the apartment, finding him sitting at the table with Fraya, talking about who knows what.

"Fraya I'll be in the bath if you need me." And without another word I head off to the restroom, with Ryder on my heels.

"Casey, where have you been? I've been looking everywhere for you. I didn't find you at home so I got worried." He says in a distressed.

I shrug his words off and close the door in his face. I'd talk to him when I was ready to talk, not when he wanted me to talk.

Taking off all of my clothes I get into the hot water that I ran a moment ago. It felt like my skin was burning, but the pain didn't faze me one bit. The pain of the almost boiling water, felt a lot better than my heart did at this very moment. It hurt, I felt distrusted by him and it hurt more than anything. It wasn't the fact he didn't tell me about them, it was the fact he didn't wanna talk about it. even tho he said we would when 'we got home', but anyone who really knows people knows that means they'll never talk about or it will start a huge fight.
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After about an hour I finally get out, the water now being ice cold and my heart still numb. Putting on a rob I walk out of the bathroom cautiously, waiting for Ryder to ambush me. I look around the corner and don't see him anywhere.