His One True Friend

The Night of Redemption

As I left school I felt the regret leaving from my pores. As I stroked my curly hair I imagined what it was like to have Rodney do it for me. The way he would make me feel... I'm getting sidetracked. Shaun, my little brother, said to me, "Why're you being so depressed?" As I slapped in the back of the head I explained, "I'm not depressed, just in love." Being the annoying little brother he is, he yelled, "WHO DO YOU LOVE SHANE!" I told him to shut up and forgave him. "No one dickhead." As we got home I went into the kitchen to grab a bite to eat before the big night. As I see Shaun eating his chicken nuggets, I steal one just to hold me over until I can taste Rodney's lips. Shaun screamed because he wanted to nuggets to himself. "DAD!"
"SHANE TOOK MY NUGGET!"
"Shaun shut the fuck up" I cried.
Shaun looked infuriated, as I had pulled the last straw he took a breath of air and shrieked, "DAD, SHANE SAID HE IS IN LOVE, AND HE IS GOING TO NICKS HOUSE TONIGHT!" This time I wasn't forgiving, I grabbed Shaun by the neck and threw him to the floor. "Don't ever talk about my personal life to dad again, I'll kill you." As he stared in fear he nodded his head. My dad walked in and asked me, "Is this true Shane?" I said, "Yes I'm going to Nicks and no I'm not in love." As I imagined Rodney holding my hand and telling me how beautiful I was, I told my father, "I promise." If only I could tell him how I wanted Rodney to love me as I loved him, to treat me like the princess I long to be. "Okay son, I'll drive you to Nicks, what time?"
"7" I said.
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I'm on my way to Rodney's house when I hear the song on the radio that was playing at a party I went to with Rodney. He was showing me a cool dance he learned while I was staring into his beautiful brown eyes and trying not to kiss him right there. That was when I realized that I was in love with him. I turn the song up and make a right turn. I've arrived at Rodney's house. My anxiety is killing me as I think about what I'm going to say to him when I walk in. I walk up to his porch and knock twice. That's when I see him. Wearing nothing but a towel around his waist I see his glistening body with his rock hard abs and chiseled jawline. I stare for a solid ten seconds until he pulls me out of my trance and says "You coming in?" I walk through the door and I find nick already sitting on the couch. He's playing fortnite and doesn't acknowledge me. "Yo Shane is here." Rodney says as he walks up stairs. "Hmm."Nick says. I roll my eyes and drift off to the kitchen. There I check my phone and see a text message from my brother. "Are you having fun making out with Rodney? haha" I get another text from him "He's never gonna know how you feel unless you tell him" I'm really getting tired of my brother right now. But he has a point, I'm never gonna get anywhere unless I make the first move. I leave the kitchen and walk up the stairs. That's when I see Rodney's room. He has Zumiez and Nike stickers on his door. I think about knocking but I'm too nervous to. I want to go in there right now and tell him how I feel about him. But I can't. This was all a mistake. I turn around and walk away from his room. I keep thinking about what Shaun texted me he's never gonna know how you feel unless you tell him That's when my feet start moving one after the other and suddenly I'm back at Rodney's door except this time I open it. I find Rodney looking in his mirror looking at me now completely naked. I want to close my eyes and be respectful but I can't. My eyes won't close as much as I want them to. And my body won't move even though I feel like running as far away as possible. "GET THE HELL OUT" Rodney shouts. My body is no longer paralyzed and I'm able to run away. Tears run down my face as I'm trying to get into my car. I don't even want to listen to music right now all I want to do is lay in my bed and cry my eyes out.