Anticipation

Chapter 18 - Franky

I've been sitting in this parking lot for what had to be thirty minutes just trying to stop crying. "Come on Franky, babe I need you to be strong for me." I could hear Azalea say to me although she was miles away by this point. I took a deep breath and wiped my face as I pulled out of the parking space heading home. A home that wouldn't be a home because she wasn't there.

Walking into the house to be attacked by Izzy, I couldn't help but smile even a little a bit. I laid down on the couch and she hopped up to curl up next to me. I wrapped my arm around her and fell asleep.

Waking up to the smell of blueberry pancakes, mmm. I see someone in the kitchen cooking, it's hard to make out exactly who they are. Without control of my own body I walk up to them and wrap my arms around their waist. They turned around kissing my lips. I pulled away to figure out who she was. Looking at her face, it was unrecognizable. It definitely.. wasn't.. Azalea.

I jolted out of my sleep, getting up walking to the kitchen. No one was in there. That was the weirdest dream.. It felt like Azalea.. But it wasn't her. I quickly got dressed in my jogging suit leaving the house to go for a run.

Making my way up the steps to my condo grasping the handrail, gasping for air and dripping in sweat. "I never want to run that hard again. Way to clear your head Franky." I said to myself as I somehow managed to get up and unlock my door. I let the door close behind me as I make my way to the couch and fall out. I guess I was thinking if my body ached, my heart wouldn't. The pain in my chest increased, telling me that my theory was wrong. "This is going to be harder than I thought."

I turn my tv on and Pitch Perfect is playing, of course. The first movie we watched together when we first started dating. "Damn did I miss her just simply lying in my arms."

Grabbing the teddy bear Azalea won for me at the carnival tightly. Okay, yeah I know I'm supposed to win her stuff but that's not how it worked. She wanted to play the game where you had to shoot the moving targets, so duh she would win on her first try. But I did win her a bear.. It just wasn't as big. "I remember that day like it was yesterday," I shake my head as if to shake away the flashback.

How do I go about my day normally now? How do you go back to normal after being on cloud nine for so long? This will take some getting used to, I just have think of it as everyday that passes, brings me one day closer to seeing the love of my life. I could never love another as I love her, so I must wait. I wonder what she's doing right now..