How Not To Be A Fantard

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Hey guys! As the title goes, this one is a spoiler post. Not recommended until approx. 6 more chapters are out.  If you don't want to get spoiled, go navigate somewhere. 

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PS: I'm not a fan of spoilers, but I'll be making an exception on this one. From time to time, I'll be posting spoilers so you'd be warned *insert smirk here*

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PS: PS: Waaaaittt, you're still here? Didn't you get the warning? Dauntless little thing, aren't you? By all means, please proceed then. I'll be ready with my: "Told you so!" 

What would happen when DK learns that Jane is his most certified fangirl?

Excerpt:

"You hate liars and yet, you've been lying to people all your life. You portray a perfect image of you but the truth is you have issues inside bigger than my lie. You are an alcoholic but you even refused to acknowledge it!" I knew it was a low blow to call him on his issues. Resorting to such childish "you are guilty too" reasoning has long been my MO. But that pained look on his face would forever haunt me.

"Don't you get it? That is exactly the reason why I'm tired and done being with liars. All my life I've been living with lies. Lying has been ingrained on me. It was indeed my life until I've met you." I so wanted to shout "cut" just so I can stop those tears now falling down his face. I have never imagined to have his "the best drama actor" look directed at me. It was worse actually. It deserved more than an Oscar. I could only take so much of that look until I start howling.

As if they have a mind of their own, my feet took a step forward. But before my hands could play catch up with the plan, DK spoke, "I never claimed to be perfect Jane, and I'm not asking you to be. All I've asked of you is your honesty. I'm sorry. I cannot be with someone who is only being truthful when it suits her." Calling him alcoholic, that was the most painful truth I've told him. I knew I should counter it with my most irrevocable truth. I love you. But saying it now was futile. He would only think of it as just another lie and I refused to subject my heart to such insult. So I let my mind saved my heart.

"Then, I guess, I cannot be with someone who hates me," and without looking back I left. I could not risk another minute in his presence because my heart was barely being restrained by my mind. I wanted to stay with him and beg him to forgive me. Forgive me for loving him even before he knew me. But I knew I won't do it because if I do that and he forgives me, I would end up hating myself and him for making me do the thing I hated most. Begging. I'm done in that part of my life and sworn never to be at someone's mercy again. Unfortunately, my heart had to suffer for not getting the memo.