I'm Still Here for You...Waiting

I Fell Short

Where do I begin.
You've given me your all, every time
You've always put me first
Me? I fell short on my end of the deal.
I fell short on my promises.
I fell short on being the best
I fell short on giving you freedom
I unknowingly constricted you
I kept you for myself like I toy I didn't want to share
Though I tried my best I feel short
Now when you needed me most I wasn't helpful.
I became a weight on you unknowingly dragging you down.
Even now when you've told me time and time again that you love me, my own head kept making me doubt
Why did I doubt?
It was my own insecurities mixed with unchecked emotions thinking I was protecting you but instead pushed you away. When I called you that night I realised that I betrayed your trust in us. Thinking only of myself because I was afraid of losing you when that was father than the truth.

Looking back at all of what we've been through you did so much for me, nothing I did would ever come close.
Now what I have to do to right my wrongs is to get my shit together, every place I feel short I gotta pick back up.

Iknow now where I messed up, thinking everything was okay but never changing, I see now where I need to change. Change for a better me. The best me for the best girl who is you.