Lets Keep This A Secret, Jordan

Ch.14 - "Why Did I Have To Make Out With Jordan?!?"

Authors Note:

Hey guys... This is awkward... 0.o

I’ve said this 1,000 times by now but I’m really sorry for not updating in three days! And I have said this before as well but my explanation is one word... SCHOOL. Jesus man, getting ready for school sure takes time and fun out of the rest of your summer ;-;

I still have to go shopping for school supplies and man, school starts in a week! I’ve been busy with orientation and getting ready for my first year of middle school :o I also have said this before as well, but I’ve been outside (Surprisingly) working on getting in shape for sports and I’ve had basketball training to cx

Well I hope you enjoy this chapter and let me know what you think in the comment section! REMEMBER TO VOTE to if you enjoyed it!

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GRACE’S P.O.V

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve tried to leave Seattle but Veronica caught me packing my bags. I’ve tried deactivating my twitter account but I realized I needed to keep it because I follow the official PAX account and I would be lost without it. I’ve tried ignoring Will and Jordan but NOTHING good has come out of that.

Why did I have to make out with Jordan?!? I think

If you are wondering...yes, I have tried killing myself, not because of this, family issues and what not. I tried taking my own life two years ago, at the end of high school. I was bullied for who I was on the outside, not the inside. Nothing on the inside counted at my high school. The only thing that mattered to anyone or got you popular was having looks, talent, a butt to show off, boobs, and popularity. Having good grades? Nope. Trying to work your ass off for a college application? Nope. High school shouldn’t even qualify as a school. Just the high part. That’s why I didn’t even bother trying with college.

“Are you feeling any better?” I hear Veronica ask me through my door

“I guess, if crappy counts as better.” I reply

“I’m heading out with my friends Paige and Angie. I’ll be back in a few hours. I’m leaving you twenty bucks for food, my gift.” She says, I can feel her smiling by the way she’s talking

“Okay… Thanks bae.” I tell her before I hear the apartment door close.

I really don’t want to go through that whole suicidal stage again.

WILL’S P.O.V

I haven’t seen Grace for a couple of hours but it feels like it’s been years. Damn, Jordan really knows how to pick up girls. Yeah, I’m not mad at him, finally happy he gets a girlfriend. He doesn’t deserve to be by himself anymore. Yeah, he has his brother but his brother doesn’t make you ‘feel good’ if you know what I mean. I really don’t like like Grace anymore. I guess we could just be friend and I’ve told Jordan that 1,000,000,000 times but he doesn’t believe me. I love Grace, but like the sister I’ve always wanted

“Can I freaking come in now?” I hear Jordan ask me through the bedroom door, completely forgetting he was still out there

“And why is that?”

“I want to have a talk, like brother to brother?”

“I guess, why not.” I say while getting up to unlock the door, glad that he chose the word ‘brother’ not ‘friend’

“Dude, I know I broke the bro code but I’m so sorry, I didn’t know that you were right there and to be honest, I was TOTALLY taken by surprise. I had no clue that was going to happen..”

I let Jordan rant on how sorry he is but to be honest, I don’t really give a heck. If he’s happy, I’m happy. He has my blessing. But I really miss the fun times Grace and I had before PAX. We could have had something. But Jordan didn’t want that because all of the Kiani shippers would have either congratulated him or tarred her apart. But damn do I miss the somewhat friendship we had.

Jordan finishes up his little ‘I’m sorry speech’ and we bro hug it out but right when he breaks apart he tears up a little bit

“Woah dude, did I do anything?” I say in concern

“I just, about what you said before, the suicidal thing.. It’s.. It’s true..” He says in disbelief

“Wha..what! Why the heck didn’t you tell me! She could be dead right now!” I say almost screaming

“I don’t know man, I was just too emotionally unstable at that moment because the love of my life was giving me a message.. Telling that she would finally give me a shot. I didn’t wanna ruin the moment!” Jordan tells me, dropping to the floor

“It’s okay man. We just have to go check up on her right now. Everything will be okay.” I tell him calming him down

“Lets go, now.” Jordan says

GRACE’S P.O.V

WARNING:

INAPROPRIATE LANGUAGE IS UP AHEAD

“HOLY SHIT.” I cry as I chuck the razor to the floor screaming in pain from the cuts

Oh my fucking god, cutting never felt so good and bad at the same time. Releasing the pain from my body made me feel so free.

Just as I want to get up and away from the razor to clean the blood, I’m at it again.

I slash the razor, deep into my skin and cry out for ‘help’ when I really didn’t need it. I take a good look at my wrist and realize what I have just done. I have gone back to cutting. I have been cutting over my old cuts from high school. It never felt so, okay, to cut. It felt amazing. As I go in for another slash at my wrist I hear the apartment door fly open.

Shit I forgot to lock it when Veronica left. When I realize the familiar scent and voices I immediately start panicking, but mainly crying. I cry in fear, in pain, and happiness from both of their aquaintences. I see Will’s Nike sneakers fly past the closed bathroom door when he see’s be out of the corner of his eyes. He steps backwards and out of the tiny peep hole in the bathroom I hear the door slam open and Will falls to his knees, crying at my side. I try standing up and washing the blood off like it was no deal but I collapse to the floor, not realizing how much blood I have lost. Jordan rushes in from hearing the loud boom and looks from Will to me. Immediately running towards me, he grabs me and  locks me in his arms. Hugging me tight he pulls me towards him, not ever wanting to let him go.

“I.. I love you Jordan.” I manage to say without Will hearing

“I love you more then you will ever love me.” He says back

From this day, I realized that Jordan and I.. Well, we need to keep this little relationship a secret.

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Authors Note:

I really hope you enjoyed this chapter! Woah, over 1,000 words! It was my gift for you guys since I haven’t written in the past 3 days.

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-Grace