Unconditional Love

Chapter three "Gone Forever"

6/27/13

I just woke up to the sound of a loud truck. I looked out my window and it's one of those big moving trucks. It looks like were getting new neighbors next door. I can see a women holding a little white dog in her arms. Maybe Hitch is going to have a new friend!

6/30/13

We met the new neighbors yesterday. They seem nice I guess, but their dog never stops yapping. It's actually more annoying then it sounds. I know Hitch is not going to like this dog at all. Today the dogs spent the entire afternoon barking at each other. I feel bad for Hitch having to deal with this stupid yapping dog all the time.

7/2/13

My life is over. My best friend in the entire world is gone because of me. It all happened yesterday. Matt, Raquel, and I were bouncing on the trampoline. and Hitch was barking at the small white dog next door. My neighbor was walking her around in their yard to go pee. Thats when we all saw Hitch break through his electric fence and sprint towards the small dog. My neighbor screamed and picked up her dog her boyfriend came running out to help her. Me and Raquel ran over screaming for Hitch. We were too late. Hitch had jumped up on our neighbor and went to bite the dog. My neighbor turned just in time and Hitch ended up biting her arm instead. I screamed for my mom and she came running down the hill. Raquel, mom, and I got Hitch in the house. We ran back out side. Everyone was crying, even mom. Our neighbor's arm was bleeding pretty badly. She wrapped it up and they drove to the hospital to get stitches. Raquel tried to calm me down, but it didn't help. I knew my dad would make us give Hitch away. I knew This was my last day with Hitch. Raquel assured me everything would be okay which made me feel better, but so many questions were racing through my head. What if we do have to give him away? What if he has to be put down? Why on earth would he do that? Is this a dream, is this really happening? I ran down to the basement where Hitch was. His face looked as scared as ours. I know he didn't mean to hurt my neighbor, but why on earth would he go for her dog! He gets along with other dogs all the time. It was so random! I yelled at him and told him how bad he was as if he already didn't know. His face was filled with guilt and horror. He couldn't even turn his head to look at me. Then out of know where my loyal loving dog growled at me. Hitch had snarled at me. I ran up stairs and cried for about an hour. When I came back down Raquel had left and dad was home. Matt had already told dad what happen. Dad was scared Hitch would do the same thing to one of our little cousins or friends. In my opinion he was just trying to protect us from this unfamiliar dog. I went down stairs to Hitch and I apologized. He gave me one of his comfort licks as an apology of his own. I laid with him there till I heard mom walk in to the room. She told us that our neighbor had to get stitches and with Hitch being so dangerous, we shouldn't keep him. I thought to my self "If only I didn't let him out". Those words replayed in my head over and over again. Later my dad called for a family meeting. At the meeting he gave us the news. It would be our last night with Hitch. We all cried hysterically. Never in my life had I seen Hitch so sad and confused. Little did he know he would loose his only family forever. I begged and begged for my parents to change their mind. They didn't. We spent the whole night saying our goodbyes and taking our last pictures with him. Matt, Hitch and I slept together in my room. None of us could sleep. We didn't want to waste a single moment with Hitch now. This morning we woke up and said our final goodbyes as we watched mom and dad walk out the door with Hitch. Matt and I cried the whole time they were gone. They came back crying too. Hitch was gone forever. I asked my mom what was going to happen to Hitch. Would he be put down, or get a better home on a big farm where he belongs? Dad said they had no idea. It all really depended on if he passed this test or somthing. I asked dad when we would find out he passed. Mom interrupted then, saying we wouldn't. He wasn't our dog anymore. There's no way of knowing what would happen to Hitch. That was probably the worst part of today. I'll have to live my life not knowing whatever happened to my only real friend in the whole wide world.

7/4/13

Today's the fourth of July. We were invited to Raquel's, but none of us felt up to it. I cry every time I walk in the door to find our home with out Hitch. It's so quiet here, no one is themselves anymore. It's like a house of grey. Hitch was the one who brought the color and joy. I think I'll be crying everyday for the rest of my life

7/5/13

Mom reminded me to turn my application in to Drew's wife . I don't think I want to work there anymore. I can't bear to look at a dog, because every time I do I break down crying. Maybe when I get used to life like this I'll apply.

7/6/13

Today has been horrible. Mom asked me to throw out all of Hitches food in the garbage cans outside. I carried out his big bags of food and instead I just lost control of my self and I dumped them on the drive way. Then I gathered all his balls, toys, collars, leashes and whatever belongings he had and I sat there with them. I spoke to them like it was Hitch. I was going insane. My mom is really worried about me, but this in a weird way was a big comfort for me. I sat there smelling his food, his collar, squeaking his toys, and calling his name like he'd come running out from under the deck any second. I waited there all day. He didn't come. I knew he wouldn't, but just in case I waited. I will always wait for him. Mom called me in for dinner, thats when I realized how late it was. I grabbed everything I wanted to keep from my pile and put it all in a shoe box in my closet. That way when ever I feel upset I'll have his belongings to comfort me. I know it's not him, but its as close as I can ever get now.

7/7/13

I just wrote some final words down on a paper to put in Hitch's shoe box. I just thought I'd share them in here too. It's not anything edited or special. they're just my final thoughts. Mom said writing about him will help me deal with his loss. "Hitch wasn't just a dog, he was my brother, my best friend. I never expected it to end like this. I never thought he would leave this way, but like my mom told me, this is life both good things and bad things happen. He was such a good, loving, beautiful yellow lab. I will never forget the special voice I had for him, or the freckle on his eye, or the birth mark on his tounge. Hitch will always be the best dog I ever will have. He will always be in my heart. My love for him will be unconditional. I can't stop crying. I don't think I'll ever stop. I'm not ready for a new dog yet, but Matt is already talking about it. God has a reason for everything and I know he only did this for the good of it. I have no idea what the good of it is, but I have no choice but to trust god. Forever and always to the greatest dog in the world Hitch."