every smile you fake

Part 2

that's not ben and ava lol

Tomorrow is the ski trip. I am SOOO excited. I woke up and put on my ripped skinny jeans and a gray cable knit sweater, curled, then brushed my hair and put it in a high ponytail with a white scrunchy and wore my maroon puffy jacket and my one purple one blue  miss match socks and tan fur slippers, just like I once wore to Bayshore. I put my gray and white marble phone case on and did my makeup. I grabbed my bag and debit card and left

I was at my locker when ben came over. "hey" I greeted "hi" he said with a huge smile. "wanna go out  tonight?" "Where?" he shrugged dinner. I looked up at him "of course! Ashton pub?" "sounds good" I grabbed my pencil case and closed and locked my locker. I kissed his check, seeing him flush red. "Bye ben" "Bye Ava!" I smiled and waved. I turned the corner and they were all there "TELL US MORE" I laughed "I feel like sandy from grease" "In that case..."lea added, then the all sung. "TELL ME MORE TELL ME MORE!" I giggled. "Dinner, Ashton pub" I got a text from ben. I looked up "five thirty, meet at his house after school, dress nice, even though I am already beautiful ." I read straight from my phone. they all giggled and awed. I smiled and blushed. 

I took my hair out of a ponytail and brushed and straightened it. I put on a v neck, sleeveless black dress that button up with brown buttons from the bottom of my chest up it was flowy and mid thigh length, it wasn't at any point fitted. I put on a cream, cable knit cardigan over top that was the same length as my dress, maybe an inch shorter. I put on high heels that showed my toes, but covered the rest of my foot, that were nude natural colored. I smiled at my appearance. every breath you take came on my Bluetooth surround sound speakers. my mom walked in. "damn avarie lambe, my baby, going on a date with a boy!" she hugged me tight "Mom...MOM! I would sorta like to breath just a little" I said sarcastically. "sorry" she laughed. I smiled. my mom insisted we take a selfie. she also took a picture of my outfit, so that meant me standing against the wall in my room and taking pictures. I also took a mirror selfie and made a question bar in black and put it on my story and added it to outfits, btw I also took a mirror selfie in forever 21 at Bayshore in the same out fit I wore to school, with the backpack to. I put that in the outfits highlight already, along with the mirror selfie I took of my outfit right now. I grabbed my red phone case from yesterday and put my debit card in the back. I grabbed my maroon coat and disconnected from the surround sound speakers in my room and switched to my air pods in and waited for ben. his car pulled out, so I disconnected my air pods, closed all my tabs on my phone and put my air pods back in my night stand drawer and left.

I crawled in the uber  and what do you know, every breath you take. I smiled and buckled up, and caught him staring at me through the corner of my eye. I smiled. "I'm sorry, your just so beautiful" I smiled, as I found myself stuck in a smile. "Its ok, lets go"

We got back from dinner and he was SOOO amazing, he payed, complimented me all night and was such a gentlemen. I really like him.

"Where are we going!" I giggled. I could feel we were in a parking lot. I had my eyes closed, so no makeup was smudged with a blindfold. I smiled at his hands on my hips, gilding me to I don't even know where. it is still day, cuz school ends at 2:15 so technically we had a late lunch. "I told you water resistant makeup for a reason...open!" I opened my eyes and saw my best friend since I was a baby standing there, Faith, the brown haired brown eyed, 5.9, teenage faith, I haven't seen her in 3 years and She was the only person who I loved, ask anyone. I screamed and ran to her as did she we jumped and hugged plunging to the ground we hugged and cried. we stood up and smiled at each other "oh my god I missed you" "I missed you more" she cried. I wiped my tears "I actually have to leave, to go back to England" "Oh ok bye I love you so much bb" "you too girlie" I hugged her tight. and she left. I turned around and hugged ben. "thank you" I said "anytime" then I reached as tall and hugged him tight. 

I plopped on my bed, my messy ponytail bobbing as my glasses sat on my freshly nourished, de makeupifyed  face as my white, flowy, cropped thrasher tee shirt  flowed on my model form body, as my gray sweatpants formed around my butt as it sunk into the bed (relatable lol) I picked up the picture of me and faith in a white stand up frame. I had a purple sweater that had the western logo on the front with the sleeves rolled not shoved up half way up my forearm. I had black leggings and white and black checkered lace up vans and a high ponytail in my long blonde hair that was curled and accented with a white scrunchy. She was wearing an navy east coast sweater with black leggings and a braid crown with black and white Nike shoes. we were standing at night in front of the barn of terror at Saunders farm. I also have those same pics with my friend group and ben but it is from grade seven and they are all on my Instagram so I framed the one that got away. I put it down and walked over to my desk with the mirror, not the stand up mirror, or the one on the wall with the stickers of different rappers, or my personal bathroom mirror,  my desk I picked up a picture of our grade six grad, a year before she left. I was wearing a bright red glam dress with silver high heels and my hair in two half up Dutch braids leading to one half up ponytail straightened. she was wearing the same thing but green. It is funny all the pictures she is too tall for me. Then the last one. I put down the white frame on my desk and walked to my other night stand, beside the one of my friend group at Bayshore, when I was wearing the maroon coat and slippers ya ya you know. behind the small three pictures side by side of me in swimsuits in Dominican republic. was a picture collage of me and her at camp in grade five. one of us lying in bed hugging the same navy blue body pillow that I still have in the basement. I was wearing my reading glasses, my hair down and curled and the same sweat pants and thrasher shirt I am wearing now looking at the camera smiling she was wearing the exact same thing except her hair was in a bun and she had no glasses . the one in the same frame beside it was me in a teal bikini  with my wet hair in a bun and her in a pink  bikini with one braid on the dock holding a big fish. the one beside that one in the same frame was us in the cabin wearing white Gucci glasses standing facing each other hands glued to our sides, knees bent, legs together, duck lips, and we had big scarfs and I was wearing straightened hair with a white knit sweater with skinny medium wash jeans with black and white checkered lace up vans. she was the same but had a gray and white adidas hoodie with black leggings and the same vans but black where its checkered. then the last one in the frame, was us running around the field, using our white sheets from the cabin as wings. I was wearing a white cropped obey tee shirt  with the word obey in black on the front. I had black high, past my belly button high waisted  denim fitted half booty shorts and a high straight ponytail with a black scrunchy and the same vans (btw I had makeup in all of these) and she was wearing a navy blue flowered romper with her black vans and her hair curled. I still have all the clothing I wore in those pictures but in my current size. 

I miss my bestfriend

Hey guys! next chapter is the juice. sorry for that chapter, just wanted to give you a feel of how important faith is in Avarie's life (and how stylish she is lol)

anyway, thanks for bearing with me!! ily you guys!

-Avarie