ADVENT high school

Idiot

   "You're kidding me right Marcy? This is just a joke isn't it?" Robin asked as she slowly descended down the stairs towards Bonnie and I. No answer could formulate in my brain let alone escape my mouth and I could tell she was growing frustrated. Bonnie looked panicked, she was slightly moving back and forth in place, staring carefully at Robin.

   "Robin... I." I began to say but was quickly cut off by Robin getting in my face. "Just go home Marceline, I don't feel like seeing you not talking to you." She slipped the promise ring I had given her off her finger and placed it into my hand. With that, she went back upstairs and I heard when the door to her bedroom shut with a loud bang.

   How could I do this to her? She was the one who was always there for me after Bonnie disappeared, despite not know that Bonnie was the ex I always would refer to. I heard Bonnie let out a breathy sigh followed by sobs. When I looked over at her she looked back at me with glassy eyes.

   "Marceline I can explain everything, I'm so sorry I just left you without saying anything."She retreated to the couch in the living room and collapsed. 

   "Honestly Bonnibel, I can't do any of this right now. You could have explained without kissing me. You know Robin and I are dating and you still choose to kiss me, Now of all times!" The anger in me built up, It wasn't really Bonnie who I was angry with but more so myself and for going along with the kiss.

   The drive back to my place was absolutely dreadful, I could feel the guilt pressing down on my shoulders, the anger boiling in the pits of my stomach. Why did I allow this to happen? I have control over what I do so how could I let Bonnie suddenly appear and make me impulsive and irrational again? I sighed.

    I parked in my driveway, no energy to take myself out the car so I sat there, my head against the steering wheel and the music on the radio play low. As if the world couldn't get any crueler the opening notes of "get you the moon" by Kina began to chime in. This was Robin and I's song.

   The tears slowly began to slip out, hot and filled with uncontrollable emotions. I would feel dirty if I even tried to sing along given the current circumstances between Robin and I. I raised my head and connected both my fist to the wheel of the car and let out one last heavy sigh.

   I can't do this anymore...