letters to grey

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Grey,

I saw you today. I was with some friends, trying to surround myself with others to keep my mind off of everything. You messaged me after. Why are you playing with my feelings? You can't be jealous about me spending time with people. You left me. I'm so confused and hurt. I need you to stop playing mind games.

You came over tonight. I wasn't ready to talk to you yet. I'm scared. I still love you. We talked for a little while. I asked you to stay because I needed comfort. I know it's wrong and it's just going to hurt more later but I needed my best friend. I needed the person I love. I asked you why you did it.

"Why did you say you've been sugar coating our relationship for the last six months? Are you even hurt? Do you even miss me?"
"I miss being able to come home to someone. And I liked you up until the very last second."

But you didn't love me. You're a liar. You've said I love you before, but you never meant it. Wow I'm a dumbass. But I still love you, even after you broke my heart.

We kept talking but you said you had to go. You hugged me.... and you kissed me. Why did you do that? That's not fair. You can't leave me and then still do that. I'm not yours anymore. I'm so sad. I don't know what to do anymore. Help me be okay.

Goodnight. I love you,
Ash