To Break | Transformers Age Of Extinction | {BOOK 4}

Chapter 9

The car ride was silent, Bee drove while I sat in the passenger seat. My eyes glued to the sandy terrain, nothing but dirt, trees and nothing else in sight.

We haven't said much since the incident with Julie and that was the only thing that was on my mind.

I pursed my lips into a tight thin line, forcing myself not to make a sound as the tears kept forming and rolling down my cheeks.

What is going on with me? Why am I so upset right now?

The little time I had with that little girl in the park ignited something in me. Seeing Julie and her mom hug, the way she excitedly talked her mom's ear off about her little adventure in the woods...seeing all the little families enjoying their time together...as a family..

What if things have been different for Bee and I?

The thought made butterflies form at the pit of my stomach. It made my heart race. The thought of even coming close to a remotely normal life made me wonder yet terrified me.

Where would I be right now if I had never met Bee and the rest of the Autobots?

"What's going on, baby? You haven't said a word since we left."

My head racing with every different possibility of what my life could or could've been.

Would I be married right now? Having a family of my own? Would I be living in a nice house, with the garden of my dreams? With my favorite flowers; roses in full bloom?

If I hadn't met Bee...would I still have gotten a boyfriend? Maybe even married him and had a family with him?

What if Bee wasn't an alien robot...and was a human like me? Would he still be dating me? What if we actually could have a family? Have a normal life together? Would that even be a possibility human Bee or not?

What if he had found someone else? Maybe another Autobot...would he be happier? Maybe be able to have a better life with...a proper future with endless possibilities since he'd be with his own kind?

What if he's only with me because of guilt? What if...what if I was the only option for him?

What if-

"Lisa?"

Bee's hand now rest on my thigh, finally snapping me out of the deep and dark abyss that I was currently drowning in. I could feel it surrounding me, my body felt cold and stiff.

"Baby what's wrong?"

My chest tightened, my heart beating rapidly to the point where I thought it was going to burst from my chest. My breathing became shallow and I swear I was going to pass out from the shortness of oxygen my body was barely intaking.

"It's nothing." I barely managed to say in between short breaths. "What do you mean nothing? What's going on? Is it about Julie?"

All I could do was nod.

Bee's other hand that was gripping the steering wheel tightened; his knuckles going white.