stargazing | tyrus

i.

❝cause when you
look like that,
ive never ever
wanted to be so
bad oh, and it
drives me wild.❞

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cyrus's pov:

well, i wouldn't have said it would be easy. breaking up with jonah, was one of thr most heartbreaking things i have ever done. and i was the one doing it. it was just a saturday afternoon....

☾

cyrus walks into the janitors closet for comfort. him and jonah always meet here, and he was alerted to meet there because jonah had posted a note on his locker. it was dark in there, of course, but he never really noticed it until he was alone. he wondered where jonah was, if he was a little late? he had to go to the bathroom, so he sent a text to jonah. "im going to the bathroom, but ill be back when im done." the text read. he looks over it before sending. when he walks out of the janitors closet, he walks around the hall, and there jonah was.

with andi?

and they look like they were. mouth to mouth. cyrus walked away, and hoped jonah didn't see him. but to his luck, jonah did.

"cyrus, wait!! this wasn't what it looks like," jonah tried to explain to his boyfriend.

"do you think im stupid? clearly it meant exactly what it looked like." and with that, cyrus turned around the hall to walk away.

☾

so that's why i did it. it's been a month now, and it's not like jonah doesn't see me in the hallway or say hi to me. sure, we're friends. but more acquaintances now. andi really hurt me. it's not like she hasn't done it before. she's my best friend, next to buffy, and sure, she knew that me and jonah were together. they're happy now, of course. and it's just me and my lonesome ass again. buffy is still single, even though i always see marty looking back at her in the halls. she's always oblivious to it, even though i try to tell her. it's always something. besides, this breakup made me truly realize who i am. cyrus goodman, who is the brave, kind and generous young man. i start junior year of high school tomorrow. i text andi and buffy to let them know, if they even care.

cy🤠: omg guys junior year starts tomorrow, y'all ready

cy🤠: supposedly it's the hardest year of them all yeehaw

cy🤠: im excited lol

cy🤠: are you guys even there

cy🤠: helllow my fellows

cy🤠: omg answer already

andi man: sorry ive just been finishing up some summer reading lol

cy🤠: you're a big procrastinator, waiting until the last day of summer to finish that omg-

andi man: yes ive figured that out already. sorry cy, but ive gotta finish this. ill talk to you tomorrow?

cy🤠: okay bye frensss

i put my phone on the wooden table next to my bed, formally known as a bedside table. i feel boring. i am boring. when i look outside, i wish i could do something. i feel lonely. i am lonely. i think im gonna go outside.
i pick up my jacket from the hanger, and then get outside. it's freezing, and id rather just call up jonah or something to play ping pong. jonah. it crosses my mind that we hadn't really hung out outside of school since the breakup. i might as well call up tj too, just for comfort i guess. i used to have a big crush on tj in middle school, but it's gone now. we haven't been able to hang out, because for some reason he's always busy with his basketball. i pick up my phone and dial jonah first.

"hey, it's jonah. leave your name and number and ill call you back when i can!" his voicemail rings with his happy jolly voice. i don't care to answer the voicemail, so i hang up. whatever he's doing is probably more important than me anyway. he's probably out there cheating on andi too. who knows. i dial tj as well, and this time, he picks up.

"hey! what's up cy guy!" tj says, cheery.

"nothing. hey, are you free today? ive been bored, and i just wanna get out of the house for a little. is that okay?" my voice cracks a bit. it's so cold outside.

"sure, ill cancel the meetup today." since he's the basketball captain, he can cancel meetups whenever. which is fine by me, but i just don't like that he's canceling one for ME. basketball is like, the most important thing in his whole life.

"tj, you sure about that? like, i dont wanna be the reason why the whole team hates you," i joke.

"yeah sure- it's alright, i don't mind. they already hate me as it is," he laughs. "meet me at the park in 10?" he asks.

"sure dude, ill see ya there."

and little did he know that his whole world was about to change.

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im not very proud of this, but whatever. leave feedback in the comments!! constructive criticism is always welcome :))
-cece uwu ✨