Peculiar Interest

Chapter 6

Dear Diary,

After junior year, I never thought I would write in here again, but I need it. I can't seem to trust anyone anymore. My childhood and teenage years were filled with daydreams of Archie finally choosing me over Ronnie and then us going on to establish careers, have children, and stay happily married for the rest of our lives. How delusional was I? I tried my hardest to be the best person I could be. I worked hard in school so I could get good enough grades and get into a good university; something like Harvard. But depression hit me hard and my grades fell, so that dream went down the dream and I'm forced to go to the university here in Riverdale in hopes of earning back those grades. When I look back at it, I was an idiot. I should have worked even harder to get out of this place.

I love Veronica, truly, she's my best friend and nothing can ever come between us, not even Archie though I also love Archie. Even then, it's hard not to resent her a little. After all, shes's gorgeous, loaded, and is dating the guy of my dreams. It makes me wonder, what use is a good personality when it's the very thing men seem to care the least about? I have been such a pushover that I let Archie deceive me and use me to provide him comfort and company whenever Ronnie refused to give him any. I know he never meant for it to be that way, but how does no one see how wrong it was for him to do that?

Sometimes I doubt that I'll even find someone who likes me in the slightest. Everyone else is happily dating someone and then there's Jughead who is practically married to food. If only I could possess that ability to not need anyone. Reggie got lucky with moving away as well, and to New York too. Maybe I too should go to New York eventually, maybe transfer to a better university there. There's so many people there that who knows, I could find a better guy than Archie. Someone cuter, less dense, someome who actually cares about me.

It's just pathetic that for so long, I built my world around this one person and relied on him so much. Then the walls came crashing down and now I have to build another world for myself. And while I may still love my two best friends, I don't think I can let them be a part of this new world for now. Maybe I will in the future, but right now, I need to focus on myself and get my life back together.

Anyways, I feel so much better after venting my feelings out. Suddenly, life seems so much better now. Maybe there really is hope. I should get to bed though, I'm looking forward to a better tomorrow. I'll write again another day, but for now, goodbye.

Love,
          Betty
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A/N: Hi everyone! Yes, I'm going to be updating this fanfiction more frequently now! It's funny because I started this when I was 17 and I turned 20 last week. So much has happened in my life and I had severe depression for a while... it took a long time for me to find the passion for writing that I had, but here I am continuing and looking forward to seeing what I can do! I promise to actually finish this story no matter how long it takes, and it will most definitely not be a Riverdale rip off.

Speaking of Riverdale, have any of you guys seen it? It's definitely nothing like the Archie Comics, so if you plan on watching it, just don't expect it to be anything like the comics because there's too many things that are different in the show that it's basically its own world. I can't say I enjoy it though. Season 1 was really good, but season 2 was so annoying that I didn't want to watch season 3. Kind of a shame that the writer did the comics so dirty! Oh well. Anyways, I hope you guys are having a wonderful day :)