Beards (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 10

•Harry•

He was hooked up to so many wires, his face was pale and he had worry lines on his forehead like he was having a nightmare that he couldn't get out of. The funny thing is that my life is kind of like a nightmare, the love of my life tries to commits suicide all because of me. Its like one big nightmare that I can't wake up from.

I make my way towards Louis careful not to wake him, even though I know hes not going to wake up anytime soon. I saw a chair right next to the hospital bed and sat in it. I just stared at Louis face noticing every little detail there was on it. Like the little wrinkles under his eyes he gets when he smiles big. Or the little worry lines on his forehead that are only noticeable when you see him really up close like I am right now. All of these little things make him so beautiful. My eyes dart to his hand.

May be I should grab it. Or is it too soon?

"Fuck it." I mumble under my breath and grab his hand.

"Why is your hand so cold Louis?" I started talking to him like we were having a full conversation.

"Sorry for what I did. I didn't mean to push you so far," I started to tear up

"I didn't mean any of the things I said. I was stupid, ignorant, selfish." I was sobbing

"I did't know this was going to happen. You just hurt me so bad and I didn't know what to do. My first reaction was to do the same thing to you. I was stupid and hurt, I knew what I was doing was wrong but I kept doing it anyway." I rambled on and on.

"Why did I have to be so fucking dumb," I let go of his ice cold hand and started pulling my hair in frustration.

"Maybe if I wasn't so fucking dumb this wouldn't of happen. God why did I have to be so fucking dumb," I fell on my knees.

"I'm so fucking dumb." I said sobbing hitting the floor.

"H-h-arry?" I heard a broken voice through my sobs. I immediately stopped crying and looked in the direction of the bed. There laid the love of my life Louis William Tomlinson, he looked so beautiful even with all the wires that are on him. I slowly got up and looked at him like it was the first time I saw the love of my life.

"God you look so fucking beautiful." I said still sniffling from my mental break down. He giggled and blushed.

"Thank you." I chuckled and walked to the chair and sat down.

"I'm so fucking sorry Louis. I'm so fucking sorry that I was a dick. I didn't mean for things to go this far. I didn't mean to hurt you. I certainly didn't want you to try to commit suicide. I'm just so fucking stupid." I started tearing up again.

'Hey. Hey. Don't cry baby," He picked up his hand that didn't have wires or needles in it and touched my cheek. He then continued to speak

"It was my choice, not yours. It was me who grabbed the bottle of pills and a razor. It was me that was too much of a coward to face my problems like a man. It was me that thought suicide was the only answer. It was me Harry, not you, me." He said tearing up putting his forehead on mine.

"I feel like I did something wrong." I said.

"You don't have to feel that way babe. It was all my fault. I'm sorry for putting you thru this. I'm so very sorry." Louis said, our foreheads still touching.

"But I'm so sorry for putting all those bad thoughts into your head, and saying all those things to you. I pushed you over the edge and I'm so fucking sorry about that." Louis shook his head, tilted it and placed his lips on mine. I was surprised to say the least, but kissed back any way. It was the best fucking kiss of my life. Louis pulled back and smiled.

"Wow." I said sighing

"That was amazing." he said laying back down in his bed.

"I'm sorry I never told you this before but I fucking love you." Louis shot up out of his bed and started attacking me with kisses, which were getting very heated by the way.

"I love you so fucking much you don't even know." Louis said disconnecting the kiss and connecting it again.

"I love you too Louis. I love you so fucking much. No words can explain how much I fucking love you." I said roughly kissing him again. He started tugging on the bottom of my shirt and I don't even know how his hand got down there. I paused the kissing and the shirt lifting.

"Keep in mind that we are still in a hospital, we can't bone on the hospital bed with people around." I chuckled and he blushed. He put his mouth to my ear and whispered.

"We could bone and let the whole world hear us, and I wouldn't care because I love you so fucking much." I chuckled at his sexual frustration.

"No babe lets save that for a more romantic time ok?" I said backing a little away from him.

He whined. "But babe I need you now."

"No no I think your tired. Its bed time for you." he sighed

"Ok I guess."

"Close your eyes go to sleep." I kissed his forehead, tucking him underneath the blankets really good to make sure he dosen't get cold. His eyes were slowly drooping, but said one more thing before he fell asleep.

"Harry what does this make us?" he yawned.

"Louis William Tomlinson will you do me the honor of being my boyfriend." I asked leaning putting my lips on his.

"Of course Harry." he kissed me one more time, his eyes fully closed but his mind is still very awake.

"Oh and one more thing. Weren't you supposed to get a doctor or something?" My eyes widened.

"Fuck I totally forgot about that. I was just so exited that you were awake.I'll go get the doctor." I started getting up and walking to the door.

Louis groaned. "No. No. It's fine I'll be fine. Its not like I'm going to die or anything." he chuckled.

"Louis don't even joke about things like that." My voice instantly becoming stern. Louis sat up in bed and raised his hands in the air, surrendering.

"Ok father. I'm sorry I can't joke around. Now may I go to sleep?" I laughed while he laid back down getting snugly again.

"Yes Louis you may. But you better obey daddy next time." He scoffed.

"Kinky"

"Yea. Yea go to bed Tomlinson." I rolled my eyes

"You don't have to tell me twice." He yawned one more time. I returned back to my seat and watched him slowly fall asleep. Drifting off to sleep myself.

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WHY HELLO EVERYBODY. I am back and sorry for not posting anything. I decided to make this chapter a very special one and extra long one. I really hope you liked it. Please don't hesitate to hit the vote button it gives me extra motivation. It's currently 1 in the morning be happy I'm doing this for you. That's about all I wanted to say. See you next time! Bye!

~Kalel