Thoughtless [m.espinosa]

*Chapter O7*

Okay I don't know if you can put 2 & 2 together but Nikki is Nicole's nickname & Kam is Kamile's nickname. Juat in case you didn't know. And Kam kissed Jack Gilinsky Not Johnson❤

Kamile'sPOV:

Matt wasn't mad bout the Jack thing but I know it's going to be awkward when I stayed the night. He held my hand as we walked & starred at my white pj's. "I'm sorry bout tonight." He hugged me outside the room. His cologne was a turn on & I couldn't resist. I grabbed the belt loops on his pants & pushed him towards me. We made out for what seemed like 5 minutes. He never pulled back until I ended it. "It's fine Matthew. I just needa know one thing." He held my waist. "Sure." My hands held his face. "Was she better?" I stopped breathing. "What? Meela?" He grabbed my hand. I nodded. "Noo noo babe. Your way better I promise. I love you." He kissed my cheek. "Well M plus M seems like a cute couple type of thing." I started to cry slowly. "Stop Kamile. She's my past, not my future. You are my only Future & I won't lose you." "I love you."

I sobbed in his jacket & we went inside. "Hey again guys." I didn't wanna look up at em. "Hey Kam." Shawn was the only guy I felt comfortable with. I know Matt's my boyfriend but me & Shawn connected before Matt Orr Jack. "Hey we're glad to meet you finally." Cameron came up to me & sat me by him. It was Matt, me in the middle, Cam in the sitting room, then on the bed was Carter, Tay, Aaron, then Hayes, Shawn, Jack, & Nash were sitting on another bed. "Where's eyebrows at?" Taylor laughed soo did the other guys. I laughed & said, "He's asleep in my bed."

They all said 'Oooo' but Matt & Shawn had a disappointment reaction when I gazed at em. I felt like a slut. "Noo noo he was at my place & we were singing... Uhm yeah & he fell asleep after Matt came." I didn't talk bout our 'Make out Sesh'. They laughed as if I was lying. I felt like a joke & there was nothing I can do bout it. I got up & ran across the room to the bathroom. "Babe?" Matt knocked on the door. I just l layed there on the cold floor. I started to fall asleep crying but Matt unlocked the door somehow.

"Babe do you wanna leave?" He sat on the floor with me & lifted my head to rest on his lap. "Noo its fine." I wiped my face. "Are you sure? Tomorrow night we're going out for dinner. Are you gonna come?" I sat up & kissed his cheek. "Yes, but I have another question, not Meela related." He cuddled me laughing. "What?" His smile was another turn on. Ohh Gawd. "I'm not good with goodbye's Orr long distance relationships. I'm sorry b-" He cut me off by kissing me. "You always wanted to travel right? You can come with me & it won't be long just 2 more months then I'm off tour." We stared in each others eyes. "Nikki told you bout traveling huh?" I laughed as he nodded.

"Yeah, how come you haven't told me bout singing & traveling & anything you've liked?" His smile was perfection. "If only there were enough hours in a day." I intertwined our fingers. "My father said that to me before my parents got a divorce." I teared up but held it in. He held me & for once I felt protected & safe. I told him everything now, I was an open book. And that felt okay for once.